OLD BLOG, I'M USING THE OTHER ONE.

2007-02-19T20:37:00.000-05:00

I have moved..

still in blogger...

but I've somehow grown weary of this blog...

so please... visit and link my new page...

its nerdiculous.blogspot.com

thank you for sharing this part of the journey with me... hope to see you on the other side......

-chino

Ang Pagbabalik...(DARNA!!)

2007-02-17T18:39:00.000-05:00

Ang Pagbabalik...(DARNA!!) (edited Feb. 19, 2007 3:37pm EST)

Hey everyone.. I'M BACK!! and I'm over my cyclical mood swing.. I've been surrounded by positive energy the past few days.. and my mood swing was pretty much validated by your comments and my friend's email yesterday.. Thank you Athena!.. lol

okok.. so I have nothing deep nor mysterious to post... So let me take this opportunity to thank people, answer some questions, and say some stuff.....

FIRST

Let me thank Athena, again.. you are my exhaust fan..everytime I vent my frustrations you suddenly make them disappear!!.. Cheers to you!! :)
Let me thank Jones.. Our Y!M conversations really lift me up.. :)
Let me thank Virginia.. Jerome..Joy..Tina and Tea for your comments on my previous post..

SECOND

Jhed.. I DON'T LIKE PAUL KIM.. but since you asked for it.. I'm gonna give him ONE VOTE each time he performs with shoe-less feet and, as he said, the same draws.. YUCK; as for Chris Richardson.. I WON'T.. coz he's so generic.. There's already a JT.. and I'm already fed up with that one.. why add another?..
Paeng.. I'm fine.. :) thanks for asking..
Virginia.. my Y!M id is "raymzizu"

THIRD

Mimose!! I miss you dear!! Pagreynahan mo ang UPd with pride and honor...... yuck ang phony.. hehehehe.. :)..basta.. i miss you and the others na.. :)
Guitar_kidd... I only always carry 100php in my wallet... I usually eat foods that cost more than 100php..hehehehehehe..
Virginia.. I am not a journalism student.. but I would like to be a journalist.. hehehehe
Talamasca.. Oh I remember!! The coffee shop/diner scene with whats-her-name and Brook!!

FOURTH

WATCH CHILDREN OF MEN.. I'll elaborate later.. :)

FIFTH

Can anyone HELP ME with the feeds thing?.. I swear I'm so ignorant about these things that I sometimes get SSOOOOO frustrated... ggggrrrr.. rrraaaarrr!..LOL.. so if anyone can help me..... just leave me a message at either my Y!M (just click that little Y!M status button).. or my MSN or my email or just leave a tag message and I'll get back to you...

SIXTH

Here's something for you guys.. BETTY AND HENRY... Christopher Gorham should totally go for me....er.... aMErica ferrera.. lol!! :P (ugh!! CRAPPY WORDPLAY!! someone will get fired!)

Toodles! :) I love you all! :)

The Pen Defeated..

2007-02-15T18:03:00.000-05:00

The Pen Defeated..

whenever i make something for anyone.. I always give 110% of me in making that trinket.. be it a note.. a card.. a gift.. or who-knows-what it is...

and if there's something that busts my bolts.. save for being lied to.. it's when I find that what I did seems to not hold enough value for the receipient to at least keep it and treasure it or at least NOT discard it..

I am so disappointed..

Leche..

I am not a crafts person.. I suck at making paper-mache.. I'm not a Martha Stewart.. nor am I close to anything with a semblance of Martha Stewart-esque abilities.. ALL I HAVE ARE MY THOUGHTS.. AND ALL I CAN GIVE ARE MY WORDS..

when I write something for someone... All I ask is that the paper be kept...whatever form or medium that paper may be.. be it literal or metaphorical..(or digital)

I guess my words really have no value.. I think i'll have to reconsider my career-plan to be a journalist.. the people might just throw away the newspaper.. this blog... I'll have to think of it's fate.. I might just be wasting your time.....my time..

I'm just waiting for my friend to either wake me up from this expected mood swing... or affirm it with her always validating brutality when it comes to honesty...

Dudes..Dudettes.. Nerds.. Nerdettes

2007-02-13T21:08:00.000-05:00

Dudes..Dudettes.. Nerds.. Nerdettes (EDITED ON FEB14 10:30pm EST)

**SANJAYA GOT THROUGH TO THE TOP24!!!! WEEEEEEEEEH!!

Dailymotion blogged video

(Via Rickey Yaneza's blog)

AMERICAN IDOL POST!!

okok.. Spoilers ahead.. Do not proceed if you plan to be in a state of suspended animation later Filipino buddies.. :)

I am quite depressed.. YES.. Sean Michel did not make it past the group round.. GGGGRRR.. So now.. I rest everything on Sanjaya Malakar.. The Indian appeal really works for him... at least that's what I think.. hehehe..

Unfortunately.. his sister, Shyamali, didn't make it also.. And they had this very touching reunion after the top 40 was announced..

GGGRRR.. as for the others.. I don't give a shit..

VOTES for SANJAYA!!.. I must have that Cingular cellphone by March!!

(how adorable!!!!!!)

(WHY?!..WHY DID YOU HAVE DRY THROAT?!!!)

**to the people who've been living under a rock lately and haven't dropped by my blog..you probably don't know that i'm obsessed with Ugly Betty and last week.. i felt like a wretch coz I watched Survivor:Fiji instead... but next week.. it's back to Betty la Fea a Ingles!..

(Christopher Gorham plays Henry in Ugly Betty.... you make me swoon............!! NERDS ARE HOT!)

**oh.. happy valentines to the eastern hemisphere.. I forgot.. VALENTINE'S DAY SUCKS!!... I thank you.. It's freezing again... I need a blanket or a hug..

Le Vrai Superstar.. Il se Reveille!!

2007-02-12T19:16:00.000-05:00

Le Vrai Superstar.. Il se Reveille!!

According to the tabloids here in Nuevo York..... The New York Red Bulls is enticing Soccer Superstar and my idol Zinedine Zidane to come out of retirement and play for the MLS(Major League Soccer)..

I SAY.. YES!!!! AND EVEN IF IT IS FRIGID AND SNOWING OUTSIDE I WILL BRAVE THE ELEMENTS JUST TO WATCH ZIZOU PLAY!!!!

With Zizou in New York.. Becks' transfer to LA will be like.. "Becks who?".. I can't believe I said that about Becks.. but that's how the cookie crumbles....

American Idol Hollywood week starts tomorrow.... and I've been reviewing my mental roll-o-dex for the best AI medley I've ever seen.... and I guess it's from Season 3...

The Elton John Medley... oohhh.. I just love the sexy vibe of Bennie and the Jets.. to John Stevens' enthralling paleness... to the party stratosphere of Saturday.. hehehe.. watch it if you want.. :)

**ugh.. I know this post sucks.. give me a break ayt?.. it's been a slow news day.. hehehehe..

And then.. the Tempest Came..

2007-02-10T16:46:00.000-05:00

And then.. the Tempest Came..

here's my response to RV's tag... 5 secrets?.. hahahaha..okok..

I'm not unorganized.. I am just an advocate of "Creative Chaos"
I love to be nibbled.. hahahaha...shet..
I am obsessed with my hair...
I lost a third of my virginity when I was in my early teens.. hahaha.. my close friends know the details.. haha..ok..this is somethin' i aint proud of.. but i acknowledge it as a cornerstone of my current personality.. hehehe(DEFENSIVE?!)
I am really sensitive... AS IN..

How's that?.. hehehe.. a bit of a sneak peek into my sordid life.. lol...

yesterday.. I experienced my first medical malady here in the States.. thank God it wasn't serious...

the cold's abating... so it ain't that frigid anymore... still makes you shiver though... But it's not BONE-BREAKING like the days before....

Currently listening to: L'amour est un oiseau rebelle(habanera) from the Opera Carmen

are there people here who listen to opera?? The Magic Flute?.. La Boheme? Madame Butterfly? Carmen? Anyone?

**EDIT..

was browsin through my yearbook... and remembered.... SOME STAFFERS MUST DIE..(Dr. Evil pinky pose)..hahaha..

SUPERBOWL SUPER SCANDAL... really?

2007-02-07T19:30:00.000-05:00

SUPERBOWL SUPER SCANDAL... really?

Here in the United States.. a debate is brewing after Snickers, the chocolate bar, aired its commercial during the Superbowl last Sunday... and it's creating quite a controversy... after some sort of protest from GLAAD(Gay and Lesbian Alliance for Anti-Defamation) the series of commercials were pulled off the air(there are 3 videos with 3 endings)...they say that it perpetuates Homophobic Violence...

Others say that it's the other way around.. that it jests the said violence and its being arbitrary..

Some say that it's just a fucking commercial.. Watch it and give me your perspectives...

Now.. you be the judge.. is this video making fun of Homosexuals? or Homophobics? or is it just a freakin' commercial??

PARA SA MGA BOBO MANAMIT!! OO, IKAW!! (Fashion week report)

2007-02-04T21:46:00.000-05:00

PARA SA MGA BOBO MANAMIT!! OO, IKAW!! (Fashion week report)

So today, I attempt to raise my head high and banish my depression to the cess pools of my hidden vaults somewhere in the recesses of my mind.. SHIT A..hahahaha.. yep.. As I told Kevin through text-messaging yesterday (Gawd I miss him and the others already)... I'll make it...or at least I'll try...

Ok.. on to more pressing matters..

.......

ok.. there's no pressing matter.. hahaha..

let me just wooo you again with my CUTE CUTE EDIBLE AND DELICIOUS NEPHEW.. :)

>> I plan on eating him when we visit them on March.. hahahaha.. that's why I'm starving myself til then.. gotta make room for a baby in my tummy.. hehehe.. :) ..

>>OOOOOHH!! I forgot to ell you guys that this week was New York Fashion Week.. I completely forgot.. COMPLETELY!!..

so fashion report for you girls (and guys?) that want what's the new must-have out of new york.. AND I WAS RIGHT!!!

IT'S GONNA BE TIGHTS!! TIGHTS AND LEGGINGS!! just as long as it's textured.. no cheating and saying that stockings are tights or leggings!!..lol.. this applies to men too... now now.. don't go around saying "what about the 'package'? It's gonna show!".. Well... people won't mind!!..and be proud of it fools!..hahaha.. SHOW OFF!!.. lol.. but to those who... like me.. are demure and reserved..(hahahahahaha).. here's the upside...

there are leggings that don't show much.. lol.. now.. this is relatively safe... unless you have really really fat legs.. hahahahaha.. :)

GUY REPORT:

here are the ABSOLUTE MUST-HAVE for March to August...

Slim shorts...

lightweight cardigans

the military look minus camouflage..

eye-popping colors like violet..

solid-white kicks..(shoes moron!)

GIRL REPORT:

here's the core girls..

long hair

I think we're seeing the return of gold in brooches and barrettes..

platform high-heels and ballerina flats

WHEW.. done!! now kiddies.... follow these in moderation ok ok??.. don't be a fashion victim!!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!(ze)

2007-02-03T20:18:00.000-05:00

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!(ze)

I'm a tad bit buzzed but not drunk.. so forgive me if this post is a bit incoherent.. I'll try to make it as whole as possible..

Today was a day of anonymous interaction.. for the past few days, my mom and I have been going to the hospital because my dad has been confined due to a mild case of pneumonia and intestinal flu.. he's getting better... but the doctor said that he's not gonna be released til monday or tuesday..

Because hospitals really freak me out.. I opted to take a walk by myself.. Below are the fragments of dialogue between myself and the people of NYC East..

"What would you like to have sir?"

->"One tall Caramel Macchiato please."

->"What's the name of the dog?"

"The name's Cain."

"What did we ever do before we had cellphones?"

->"I have no idea.. from where I come from if you don't have one you are non-existent!"

->"It's really cold out there today!.. they say it's gonna be around 16degrees fahrenheit!"

"Yeah.."

->"You take care now granny.."

"You too.."

hahahaha.. the "->" lines are what I said.. hahaha.. :)

in the paper today.....

(GUCCI canvass sneakers for men costs $395.. FUCK!!)

(if you go out on a rainy day without a cap or an umbrella or a hood... this is what you're gonna look like.. like Holy Mother Mary.. hahahaha)

(because of my depression.. I posted a song on the wall of the shower and sang like I've never sang before)

I don't have a title

2007-02-01T13:19:00.000-05:00

I don't have a title

you know what.. lately.. I've started to go down the path of depression again.. even last night as I was going to sleep I was crying for a reason that only my closest friends know.. And right now as I'm typing this entry.. Teardrops are falling down my cheeks because of that old guy, Sherman Pore, from American Idol last night... gawd..

when I'm depressed, any tear-jerker will make me cry.. ANY.. and with that clip of Sherman singing "You Belong To Me" to his dead wife.. I crumbled like a piece of mush...aaaahhh... this sucks...

here's the video..

even fuckin' Queer as Folk made me cry.. FUCK! (I watched season 5 yesterday)

I tried to cheer myself up.. but when I listened to happy stuff... I got so fuckin' pissed off that I just stopped..

and last night.. as i was going to bed.. I asked God that if what I'm holding out for isn't there... that He give me the maturity to accept it.....

looking ahead... uncertainty really is unnerving..

"just remember til you're home again... you belong to me.."

If you were made to choose.......

2007-01-30T12:38:00.000-05:00

If you were made to choose.......

a choice between a slice of chocolate cake or a piece of bread... chocolate has at least 100 times the calories of bread.. but bread has 100 times less flavor than chocolate cake.... which do you choose?

a choice between taking a walk to the mall or riding a cab... walking is a great form of exercise plus it's free!.. but it is physically taxing at times and the heat/cold is a shunning aspect of walking... a taxi cab, though there is a fare, provides comfort and refuge from the sun or the cold.. but it does make waste of our bones and muscles..(okok.. this case is only applicable to the malls that are a bit near to the point of origin..)..which do you choose?

now.. these choices are quite common and may be a bit arbitrary.. but there comes a time when choices become harrowing and your decision will affect how your life will course through the arteries of time...

I'm just gonna provide one example......one question to be exact...

You have a special someone.. who makes you feel so comfortable and so safe...... you know that no danger will befall you when you're with that person..your life will be normal and calm and unassailed...... and you're pretty sure it's love...

but there is someone else...

someone who's debonaire.. bad and dangerous... whenever you're together... passion and fotuity are afoot.. you feel the fires in your body and soul.... but you are not sure if it's love or what...

and you had to make a choice.........

Choices.. the curse that God sent to humanity as a test of its fortitude.. devotion and tenacity...

who would you choose???...

I Guess it's Back to Ohio...

2007-01-28T11:54:00.000-05:00

I Guess it's Back to Ohio...

as a sort of finale to my titas' trip here in New York.. we once again braved the cold and went to go bargain hunting in ChinaTown..coz you know,, AZN RULES!! (asian rules-some sort of slogan by the asian-americans.. :) )

again.. I was able to haggle down the price of the caps and sunglasses that I bought.. hehehe.. I was also able to buy my first pair of skinnys.. skinny jeans are, as you may know, all the rage in avant garde male fashion.. lol.. well..actually... in milan.. tights are the fad for men.. New York hasn't caught the TightsFever yet.. but wouldn't that be fun?.. men wearing tights.. hahahaha.. :P

the store had a sale and I was able to buy my Levi's Skinnys that would have probably cost around $70-80 for $40.. wow.. and then I also spotted this black Calvin Klein sweater.... As some of you may have noticed.. all my sweaters are BLUE.. and I'm fuckin' tired of the blue sweaters already!!!!.. so I bought it.. well.. it's actually my auntie who bought it...

the only question is.. I don't know if it's for men or women.. coz the tag says it's large... and it's just snug on my bodee!.. so it's either I'm starting to become obese or I may have bought something for women.. hahahaha.. but it doesn't look distinctly FOR WOMEN ONLY... so WHATEVER!!.. it's fab..

sorry peeps.. no hotties for this post...(xcep me..lol!!) all I photographed were my aunties, my mom and myself.. maybe next time.. lol

(walkin' towards the train.. see my tita's fabulous boots!)

(FINALLY!.. the STATUE OF LIBERTY!!..hahahaha)

(just ze pout.. hehehe..)

POST SCRIPT... here's someone whom my aunties will see once they're back in Ohio.....

(this is Garrett.. he's my nephew.. he's the very first kid to call me tito and I fuckin' LOVE it!!) (another baby for my tummy!!)

HOT STUFF..

2007-01-26T19:17:00.000-05:00

HOT STUFF..

my aunties from Ohio arrived yesterday.. And that means only one thing.. New arrangement of the social activities set for the week.. so today.. we went to Manhattan again and toured around.. In today's post.. it's ChinaTown... and aside from the Greenhills-like atmosphere of the faux designer products they sell.. I have only one thing to say about ChinaTown.....

HOT HOT HOT!!..

the guy in red..although his rear was fully covered in denim..... had the most entrancing ass... the contour made me stare at it for a while.. as if no one was there.. and don't get me started on the shape..lol.. i was unable to get a photo of it coz the camera that I was using was SOO big.. lol.. just take my word for it.. PERFECT ASS.. not to mention the sexy curly hair and those hazel eyes.. lol.. ok.. the -5degrees fahrenheit windchill slipped my mind for a sec... lol...

PRRRTT!! FASHION POLICE!!

2007-01-24T22:37:00.000-05:00

PRRRTT!! FASHION POLICE!!

hello guys!.. so how've you been?.. me?.. still here.. and I'm getting fuckin' frustrated with the non-stop trips to the 99cents store to buy water for...you guessed it.. 99cents.. I mean COME ON!!.. the ordinary stores sellit a $1.59.. and 3 bottles of water is VERY HEAVY!!.. (no kidding.. my arms are so sore!!)

The designer collections for Fall 2007 came out in Milan recently...and they're all fabulous!.. lol.. (uh-oh.. here's my BrandWhoredom peeking its ugly head again..) and of course.. I've compiled my wishlist.....

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.. LET ME PRESENT TO YOU THE VERY FIRST SLIDESHOW I'VE MADE... MY WISHLIST FOR FALL 2007.. :)

hehehehe.. come on.. A guy can dream can't he?.. I know that I can't afford those (YET).. but rest assured that once I can.... hahahahahahaha(thunder and lightning).. I will parade in Times Square and finally have the audacity to window shop in Saks 5th Avenue..lol..

to speak truthfully.. I dress up really fancy only for special occassions.. but most of the time.. I'm just wearing a casual tee and jeans.. but recently.. I've become a little iffy on the classic denim.. I'm now leaning towards the stressed, but not tattered, type of jeans.. a little skinny.. but not so much.. Just expect that when there's a birthday... I'm wearing a dress shirt.. :)

how about you guys?.. I don't know most of you.. so could you give me a little 411 on your wardrobe choices?.. It's my way of getting to know you..in a manner of speaking.. :)

VIDEO POST..(blah blah)

2007-01-22T14:07:00.000-05:00

Fallacious Conception of Thought

So it's 12:04 midnight eastern standard time.... and I just came out of my Heineken-induced tipsy mode...and I'm typing on the computer....

I just finished watching "Little Children" starring Kate Winslet and Patrick Wilson.. it's a very deep and borderline disturbing depiction of people's need to rebel against the traps set by society and of people's needs to feel alive.. It delves into illicit and torrid extra-marital liaisons.. pedophilia... and how those caught up in it attempt desperately to atone for their transgressions..

The question is... which rock have I been living under that I wasn't able to detect in my radar the oooohh-lala-ness of Patrick Wilson?.. i mean.. I watched Phantom of the Opera like...50 times!(He's Raul).. and I even passed him off then as a geeky-poof-type of guy... But in Little Children..Non monsieurs et mademoiselles!.. Il est formidable et beau..ET CHAUD!! TRES CHAUD!!!.. those sex scenes really gave him a lot of points in my book..lol..I guess shorter hair does work for him.. Again.. CHAUD!!**nearly faints**

*my favorite dialogue*

(while having sex...)

Brad Adamson: Do you feel bad about this?

Sarah Pierce: No, I don't.

Brad Adamson: I do. I feel really bad.

(continues to have sex...... plus a lot of moaning and groaning..)

I also finished watching all 13 episodes of Ugly Betty... and I gotta tell you guys.. I LOVED EACH AND EVERY ONE OF IT.. especially the first episode.. made me cry..

Besides Betty.. I find myself strangely engrossed with the character of Mark and Amanda..

they're the other assistants who make Betty's life a living nightmare but hide it under the guise of office camaraderie..both of them are really bitchy.. really haughty..and both of them loooooove couture...always in on the trends.. Oscar de la Renta, Gucci, Armani, Vera Wang and many many more... hehehe.. but aside from those facts.. I find that I can somehow relate to them because beneath their facade of aloofness.. there is a hidden story of human interest that gives a prelude to why they are like that.... that or it's just because they loooove couture!..lol

And please watch this video.. :) it's just the best.. Everytime I watch it.. when I get to the final parts...my eyes start to swell up.. :) ..

QUESTION OF THE DAY.... ano kaya ang feeling na matawag kang.... QUERIDA/O???.. individual perspectives would be well appreciated.. :)

Look for the Rainbow in Every Storm...

2007-01-20T22:31:00.000-05:00

Look for the Rainbow in Every Storm...

Hello everyone and mabuhay!... This is still your exiled resident Gossip, Chino reporting from the fringes of the Big Apple.. and apparently, I will remain in exile for quite some time still.. hehehe.. I didn't know that fact when I boarded Asiana Air flight 222... had I known it back then, I would have employed the only strategy that i would have had... SULKING.. yep.. I would pout my lips and tell my mother how conniving and dastardly she is.. then turn my back on her... hahahaha..as if I have the audacity to do that.. :)

So from this point onward, i will be blogging from the other side of the world.. :)

Let me begin this post by saying that.... FUCK YOU YOU FRIGGIN' LINNAEANS!!.. hahahahaha!!.. I missed your candor and your "moral excellence"!! (excerpt from the 2005 Student Council Election.. I was disqualified by the administration from running coz they had issues with me..hahaha).. I could tell that once 3 or more of us used the Conference function of YahooMessenger all cares would be thrown to the wind and hell would break loose..

Friends.. I would just like to make clear to you.. I haven't been held-up....YET.. hahahaha.. :D

Do any of you have skype?.. Skype me!!..wahahaha.. I've met some very interesting people through Skype.. and I'm very much amused (in a good way) by how hard they grasp to speak English.. hehe.. (I find it soooo cute!!) they grasp it just to be able to talk to you.. Like this Czech guy who had to translate everything I was saying.. hehehe.. and this turk kid.. who was very perky in the way he conversed with me with very poor grammar..hehe.. A+ for the effort..

there's one question I'd like to leave you guys... "Do you think you're what they say you are?".. I'd appreciate your individual answers and perspectives on this question.. Thanks and auf wiedersehen Pilipinas!! Til we meet again.. :'-)

Google Idol

2007-01-17T16:57:00.000-05:00

Google Idol

~o~According to the Fortune 500 magazine, GOOGLE is the best company to work in.. Let me enumerate some of the perks..

There's a free gym

Free food, snacks, beverages etc. (it's an all-you can eat mecca)

on-call company physician

free salon and spa services

competetive salaries (investment returns are TO DIE FOR)

there's also a lap-pool and the like in the complex.. I AM SO SETTING MY SIGHTS ON GOOGLE..

To the powers that be of GOOGLE.. Is there a place in your company for someone who has no affinity for computer programming but does a hell of good shit in the creative department?.. CALL ME!!.. hahahahahahaha..

The only roadblock to my pursuit of the Google Way is the fact that it's in the West Coast.. and as of now.. there's no way I'm leaving the east.. nuh-uh... EAST COAST RULES!!!

(ok..it's free to dream.. indulge my megalomania for a sec)

~o~ did anyone watch American Idol this week? My golly... I now know who to watch out for.. there are a LOT of loons and psychos in this place... Harinawa none of them are psychopaths that could stab you in the neck!!!! I really really thought that Red was gonna kill the judges.. REALLY!!

~o~TIME- 2:50 pm ET .. It started SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *here comes Santa Clause here comes Sanata Clause right down santa clause lane!*

~o~I was browsing BryanBoy's blog and I found a very posh and ooooh-lala tee...

IT COSTS A FRIGGIN' 88euros!!.. hello?!!.. that's like $200!!! gggggrrrr... love hurts!!.. hahahahaha

Oh BECKSIE!! YES!!

2007-01-16T14:08:00.000-05:00

Oh BECKSIE!! YES!!

Ooohh-lala David Beckham has a friggin' look-a-like!!..lol.. he's a for hire guy for corporations and personal events.. and apparently.. Becks the 2nd caters to both sides of the fence..hahaha.. :) I was really not interested at all until I saw the caption of a BritBlog that says.. "Gives us a chance to bend him like Beckham".. roflmao!!.. can you say: THE GREATEST MARKETING STRATEGY IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE?.. I mean come on.. at 32 Becks is still very RAVAGEABLE..(hahaha.. the US winter has not made me frigid just yet!)...

they say he sounds like becks too... hhmmm.. interesting.. *playing a scenario in the brain..lol*

the question is.. would a look-a-like be as...uummm.... hhhmmm.. ABUSABLE?..hahahahaha!!

here are some pics..tell me what you guys think about it..

*****

*real becks

*Fake becks

*real becks

*fake becks

what is the verdict?.. Hit me up guys! :) luvya 'ol! :)

PREGNANCY TEST ANYONE?!!

2007-01-13T19:27:00.000-05:00

PREGNANCY TEST ANYONE?!!

Uh oh.. friends..fans..lurkers and all... I have news for you..

I HAVE A FRIGGIN' BABY!

I don't know why I didn't notice it.. just one day.. while I was doing my business in the toilet.. out comes this baby!

I don't know who the father is... (who could it be?...*thinking...*).. hahahahaha.. FUCK!! it's PHILIP OLIVIER!

apparently.. you can get pregnant without knowing you're pregnant.. Fuck!.. I knew I should've taken that friggin' pregnancy test!!

just kidding..nyahahahahaha.. he's my step-sister's.. his name is Calvin.. oooooh!! He's soooo cute I want to eat him alive...

argh!!.. he is so Fuckin' cute!!!! aren't those cheeks SOOOO friggin' edible?... I want a baby NOW!! I need to find someone to knock me up.. hehehe.. ;P

A while ago we had mama's birthday party.. HAPPY *TOOT* BIRTHDAY MUM!!..

Does anyone know about Philip Olivier?....

Reunion of Sorts..

2007-01-11T15:56:00.000-05:00

Reunion of Sorts..

just when my system was on the verge of crashing because of "oldness".. a savior came and reinvigorated my senses and energies with YOUNG BLOOD...

Thank you KAYE!!.. You don't realize how OLD I've gotten in the past 2 weeks.. STUCK WITH QUINTOGENARIANS!!.. I mean.. I love them and all.. but... COME ON!!.. OLD PEOPLE are not my kind of people!!..

It's been 3 years since I last saw Kaye.. She still looks the same.. she just speaks in an American Accent now.. and AYLABET!!... She's so "*snaps* Oh no you didn't!"!! hehehehe.. It's just a bit of a downer that we weren't able to go ice-skating... but hey... we can go ice-skating when you get back from university..

(kaye..nyahehehe.. I love your accent..and your shoulders!.. nyahehehe.. luvya dear!)

(at the trains.. yeboy!.. wacky time!)

(going out of Toys R Us..with Kaye's Bro's friends)

(at Steinway Hall--Sabi e Good Boy/Good Girl pose daw)

**yesterday's firsts:

I met my first "puti"
I met my first jew.. hehehe
My first time to cross the state line alone..
my first tijme to eat Indian Food (my stomach is screaming REVOLUTION!!)

I'm so New York na!.. hahahahaha.. :)

I need a buddy...a SHOPPING BUDDY.. nyahehehehe.. :P

BUT WHAT THE FUCK?!!!!...

BAGONG SABAK SA MANHATTAN

2007-01-09T19:49:00.000-05:00

BAGONG SABAK SA MANHATTAN

we once again braved the cold of the Eastern Seaborad today.. and braced ourselves for what might be a repetition of the disastrous "Manhattan Landing" we attempted 2 weeks ago...

But we had come prepared... this time.. we made sure that Manhattan would no longer make us feel like immigrants...though we are.. hahahaha!!(thunderous laughter)... PREPARE FOR ASSIMILATION..

We went first to the site where the World Trade Center used to tower over its relatively liliputian neighbors..now..all that remain are crains and the remnants of a staircase that probable spanned 1000 feet.. We went there to get our Unlimited Ride Card for the MTA or the Metro Transport Authority known more popularly as the Subway.. like the Unlimited Text offers of Globe and Smart and Sun Cellular.. New Yorkers enjoy unlimited access to the Subway Network every week.. but ofcourse..it comes at a fee..

(all that's left..)

Mom and I ate lunch at a Chinese Restaurant where they priced by the pound... Immediately, my mouth watered at the sight of the food.. grilled shrimp.. chicken with brocolli.. pork and beef and other foods, the preparation and cooking of which I have no idea.. All I know was that hunger overtook all my senses and I just placed food after food into my plate.. It cost us about $16..hehehe.. :P

Then.. it was off to shopping.. I was SO happy that we were able to buy leather gloves from Century 21.. I tell you.. come to New York when they have slaes because the price drops are to die for.. I bought my pair of gloves for $16.. so did my mom..

A subway ride away.. at the mouth of China Town.. I bought a Kenneth Cole jacket.. YEBA!! BRAND-WHOREDOM at its finest!!!.. and again.. it was on sale.. THANK GOD because it's SOOOO GLAM!!!

Siyempre we went to Times Square.. I could only imagine how it would have felt if we were able to go to the New Year's Celebration there....

anyway.. here are other photos.. I'm not a good photographer.. so bear with the poor photography.. hehehe.. :)

(my new favoprite show!!..UGLY BETTY!..a screen ad at the gargantuan plasma screen in Times Sq)

(hello PROJECT RUNWAY!! HODIE?!..where are you?..hehehe..I LUV HODIE!!)

**well.. that's it for now.. hehehe.. more to come in the following days... nyahahaha

toodles! :)

The Path Trains are Stranded Today Because of Gas Problems.. That's Ok.. I'll Walk.. :)

2007-01-08T10:14:00.000-05:00

The Path Trains are Stranded Today Because of Gas Problems.. That's Ok.. I'll Walk.. :)

Today.. I give myself to the sharks.....watch out for blood and misplaced appendages!.. Today.. is a day of reckoning... a giant leap forward for me that knows no concrete and clear result...I might come out of it alive and revitalized... or I might come out of it impaled with no more desire to live..

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Today.. I apply for my first job.. nyahahahaha.. however.. I will not be considerd further til that fuckin' GreenCard gets here.. so it'll just be my initial application.. :) ..but still...

I do it for the most humane and altruistic of reasons.... to satisfy my Brand Whoreness... yes.. I admit.. I am a whore... a brand whore..an attention whore.. a lime-light whore.. hehehehe...

my main goal is to save enough to buy me those things that I was only able to look at while visiting Saks Fifth Avenue, Macy's and Neimus Marcus... who knows.. maybe one day.. I can afford to buy my first Louis Vuitton murse.. hehehe.. :)

I have my shopping list planned already...

D&G time watch

Juicy Couture jeans

Diesel motorcycle leather jacket

Karen Walker sunglasses

that's it for now.. I don't want to get ahead of myself.. I will be saving for 2 months.... STARVATION??.. nah.. I'm ambitious not stupid! I'll just ask my mom for money for my lunch.. nyahehehe.. :)

Pray for me dearest readers.. :)

oh oh oh.. and before I forget... I love the french and the germans.. hehehehehe.. :)

toodles! :)

Friggin Media and Promotional Stuff.. aylabet!!

2007-01-04T12:39:00.000-05:00

Friggin Media and Promotional Stuff.. aylabet!!

(britney.. you let your cat loose.. hahahahahaha!! :P)

(kim..you fuckin' bitch!.. talagang nakasama ito sa sulat mo sakin a!!.. FUCK YOU!!..hahahaha!!)

(o..sa mga pupunta diyan sa Las Vegas na gustong magtirahan.. kontakin ang numerong nanjan!!..hahahahaha)

(funny vid.. watch it..this guy is AMAZING!!)

now..to my post.. In my one week stay here in the States.. only recently have I glued myself to primetime TV.. and HELLO UGLY BETTY!!.. I luv this show.. I dunno why.. I was so touched with the light manner in which the show is made.. hopefully it will come to the Philippines para masaya.. hehehehe.. :) ..i will be staing tuned..

Gosh!.. AYAW ko na kay George ng Grey's Anatomy.. dito sa current season e napaka-bitchy na niya.. and he's supposed to be straight a!!.. nyahehehe.. :)

MISSED OUT!!

2007-01-01T15:15:00.000-05:00

MISSED OUT!!

fuckety-fuck-fuck!! I wasn't able to experience the Manhattan New Year's Celebration because the quintogenarians here at home are SOOOO "I don't wanna go there.. it's like.. SOOO cold and it's like..just a gathering.like"..yes fans.. say it in pure DITS accent.. think: blonde and cup size D.. hahahahahaha..(anna anna anna nicole..you're so bodacious!)..hahahahaha.. just kidding.. they're intelligent.. but really really old-fashioned..and I couldn't just go there by myself.. HELLO??!!.. I have no idea how to get home.. hehehehe.. (Note to Aza.. aza..baka ma"holdap" ako ng hindi oras!!..hahahah)

so for New Year's Eve day, all we did out of the house was to go grocery shopping.. again, we braved the biting cold...

In the Grocery store..to my surprise.. MEXICAN-a-PALOOZA!!.. I thought they were all bound from Tijuana to LA or San Diego... I didn't know they were as far up north as the TriState Area..

I so wanted to test my spanish on them.. but I didn't want to embarrass myself with wrong spanish.. I WOULD JUST DIE!!..

hahahaha..

(going home back from the grocery store with a cart..hahahah)

A Trip to the Center of the Universe

2006-12-30T10:08:00.000-05:00

A Trip to the Center of the Universe

Yesterday was our first venture into the streets of Manhattan.. We left the house at around 1 in the afternoon and rode the Path Trains to Queens and then the subway to New York City itself.. I was SO excited... but.. since showing it may give off the fact that I was a neophyte in the area, I just played it cool and pretended that I was from there.. nyahehehe..

(isn't she a cutie??.. took it in the train)

when we arrived in New York, I was dumbstruck........ I didn't know what came over me when I was dressing up.. by some cruel twist of fate, I wore a dark olive green hoodie (HUWAT?!) over a pale yellow long-sleeved shirt with jeans and sneakers... I already had an inkling as to what the New York fashion stratosphere would be like... yet I didn't remember it when I was dressing up.. GGGRRR!!!! BIG FASHION FAUX PAS!!!! My mom and I looked like fish out of water!! While everyone was wearing their Yves Saint Laurent coats and their Ferragamo boots, we were stuck with who knows what brand it was.....

when we entered Saint Patrick's Cathedral, I told my mom that the next time we enter New York, she has to wear Fendi.. nyahehehehe.. and I will wear Dolce and Gabbana.. ASA nalang... In my wallet.. all I have is $3.. hahahahahaha.. HELLO D&G BOTIQUE!!

and it was double cold!!.. I was already embarrased because I was shivering like hell (HOW UN-GLAM!!) and it wasn't even snowing yet!!!!!.. The consolation of the day was that we got to go to Time Square and awe at the microcosm that is New York City....

I hope that we can go there for the New Year's Eve celebrations.... with better outfits next time!!!

well.. at least I was able to buy a Cashmere scarf..

In less important matters.. Saddam Hussein has finally been executed..

Friggin' Racist Fucker!!

2006-12-29T01:25:00.000-05:00

Friggin' Racist Fucker!!

HELLO EVERYONE!! CHINO-ZIZOU IS BACK!! And I'm currently Guten Aben-ing.. Buenas Noches-ing and Bonsoir-ing from the fringes of the Big Apple!!.. nyahehehe...it's so FRIGGIN' COLD!!

Fuck you you RACIST IMMIGRATION OFFICER!!!!!.. halos 3 oras kaming naka-upo sa JFK dahil ayaw niyang iprocess ang mga hindi PUTI!! iniwan niya kami doon after niyang iprocess ang mga caucasian!!!!!! BWISIT!!!! kasama namin ni mama e mga "No hablo ingles" at mga "Nani?"..(mga Meksikano at Intsik)you muthhafucking cunt!!

We were like refugees!!.. nawala ang sense of "glamour" ko (naka Brooke's Brothers akong long sleeved na white sweater tas magmumuka akong tumakas sa giyera sa Somalia!!) bwisit na epal na balbasing tao yan!! ANG PANGET MU!!!!... bute na lang at yung pumalit sa kanya e tila Second Generation Filipino-American at nang makita niya ang "Republika ng Pilipinas" passport ko.. e come to the rescue bigla.. THANK GOD!!!

at dahil doon.. kahit mas maganda ang itsura ng John F. Kennedy Airport.. mas pipiliin ko na ang Incheon International Airport as my model airport!!... naka-ngiti lahat ng empleyado at ang dami pang eye-candy..nyahahahahaha.. :)

my roaming is active..so you guys can still text me..kung nakatutuwa..e di rereplyan ko..if not.. edi sa YM nalang.. nyahehehehe.. :)

You Are a Super Flirt

You love to flirt, so much so that it gets you in trouble.In almost any situation, you find yourself flirting - even when it's inappropriate.You tend to embrace all flirting styles too.. from coy to sexy to playful to serious.And if someone flirts back, you'll crank it up even more!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

fuck.. jet-lag... fuckety-fuck-fuck!!

will be posting pictures of my despedida and stuff in the following days..

Toodledoo!!

WANTED: Audacity

2006-12-22T21:17:00.000-05:00

WANTED: Audacity

kahapon ginanap ang aking Despedida party... sa aming mumunting tahanan aking tinangkang pagkasyahin ang 20 katao.. mabuti na lamang at may yard kami kundi muka na kaming nasa evacuation center sa sikip..

masaya naman ang aking huling party sa napakatagal na panahon.. may iyakan atbp.. 3,000+ din ang nagastos ko doon.. 1,000 para sa inumin dahil nag-all-out ako sa vodka.. dahil ayaw kong magbeer dahil nakakataba..bumili ako ng Absolut..hehe.. tapos para sa mga "safe-drinkers"..mudshake binili ko..

Matapos ang kainan..nagsimula ang inuman.. dahil naubus ang shotglass ko.. scotch glass na lang ginamit ko kahit vodka iniinum ko.. dahil dumating ang aking mga foreigner "family friends" e kinailangan ko pa silang ientertain.. so ako...naka-2 shot lamang.. habang ang aking mga kaibigan..naka5+ na shot.. salamat..

tas dumating siya...hindi ko siya pinapansin kahit andun siya.. sabi ko sa sarili ko ang "kapal naman ng mukha nito.. di ko naman inimbita e dumating".. tapos sinabihan na lamang akong umiiyak na siya.. siyempre ako.. naawa!!..kaya nilapitan ko na siya para kausapin.. FIRST TIME after 2 months..dadampi ang aking balat sa kanya..(wahehehe).. pero kaya pala siya umiiyak kasi hinapas siya ni aza..bwisit..nasira ang dramatic at important effect ko...

nag-usap kami.. hinampas ko din siya ng malakas sa galit.. pero matapos ay sinabi kong pinapatawad ko na siya...na"fast track" na ang aking healing process.... nakikinita ko na ang "closure" na hindi ko mahanap for 2 months....

pero nang matapos ang pag-uusap..may napagtanto ako... kahit nag-uumapaw ang pagkamuhi ko sakanya... hindi parin maaalis ng galit na iyon ang aking unang naramdaman para sa kanya... It's always gonna be there.. but then again... it's no longer going to dominate my life.... (enter Nina's "Someday"..hahaha)

**hindi kaagad ang pagrealize ko dun after niya umalis..medyo kinailangan ko pang tumoma ng beer para marealize ko yun..**

pero paggising ko... napangiti na lang ako... a big burden off my shoulders... napatawad ko na siya.... pero may utang siya sa aking 2 sapak.. isa sa tiyan..isa doon sa baba..hahahahahahaha!!!!

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baka huling blog ko na ito sa Pilipinas.. the next days.. I'm gonna be so busy with packing and shit.. that's right dearest fans... I'M GOING GLOBAL!!.. to the WEST!!.. hopefully there's a computer there that I can use to update you guys on the enigmatic machination that is my mind... hahaha..

In memoriam: A Picture and a Text Message is priceless...

2006-12-20T21:39:00.000-05:00

In memoriam: A Picture and a Text Message is priceless...

I woke up with a buzz... my body is once again screaming "abuse"!!.. 3 straight days of going out.. WALA NANG PAHINGA!!.. siguro ang consolation nalang dun e I get satisfaction from other things..hehe..

2 things entered my mind when I woke up...

I need to go to the grocery for the food tomorrow..it's gonna be my last bash for 2006..
Can I fit 20+ people in my house?... Why did I invite so many???..hehe

pero okay narin yun...last na eh... and then I'm having a hard time choosing what the drinks will be.. I was lucky enough to score gift certificates from Coca-cola tas may nagregalo pa samin ng isang box ng Virgin cola.. so ok na ang merienda inumin.... susunod ay ang GABI inumin...

darating daw ang kwak..hehe.. LASINGIN!!..hahahaha... (evil laughter)

ang SAKIT na talaga ng katawan ko kahapon pa.... buti my texting fingers still aren't affected... they're as RESILIENT as ever!!.. hahahaha.. thank you distribution list!!..

natawa ako.. nang aking buksan ang aking "Common English Errors" book... e may nakaipit doong litrato niya.. nung may bigote pa siya.. hahahahahaha.. (kilala na 'to ng iba..di ko nalang imemention kung sino..hehe)..haaay.. napasmile nalang ako.. :P..

I just received a text message from Ace... Ma'am Gumboc's husband just passed away... May he rest in peace..

Requiem

2006-12-18T21:36:00.000-05:00

Requiem

After I got home from partying last night.. I arrived at home to a sepulchre atmosphere.. I didn't ask any questions coz I was sooooo tired and my energy level didn't allow me to be my usual talkative self....

when I set down my bag... my tita told me that Brooke was dead... they found him bleeding with his head at an angle that made it appear as if his neck was broken.... I wanted to see him but my tita told me that I shouldn't.. I'm a very sentimental and emotional person.. and I easily get teary-eyed by such events...

I was really at a loss... memories from our first meeting ran through my mind, like a doodle someone drew on paper.. a moving comic.. the first time we met.. he was SO talkative and so spontaneous.. I knew I had met my match... I told myself that it was gonna be a bearable vacae coz andun siya..someone I can talk to and someone who won't judge my fallacious and sometimes immoral thoughts..siya ang kausap ko palagi noong araw na akala ko gusto ko nang magpakamatay..

I asked myself how come I didn't know na magkakaganoon siya?... there wasn't any sign.. it was all so sudden.......

Brooke.....hindi kita malilimot... paalam na..nawa'y lumipad ka patungong langit... Brooke.. aking myna bird....

tumatanggap po ako ng abuloy... maaring ipadala nalang po sa aming tahanan.. salamat po..

UP Executive Commision Kinansela ang Lantern Parade..pero no epek din..hehe

2006-12-15T21:19:00.000-05:00

UP Executive Commision Kinansela ang Lantern Parade..pero no epek din..hehe

kahapon ginanap ang taunang Oblation Run sa UPdiliman ng Alpha Phi Omega fraternity... papunta na dapat ako ng diliman ng 10 o'clock kasi may mga kikitain pa ako bago ang run.. pero nagpahintay ang aking mga kaibigan dahil sabay-sabay na lang daw kami.. so siyempre..as a good friend(wahehe)..e ok lang sakin..

umalis kami ng Padre Faura ng alas'once...12 ang run.. na-miss namin...tas pagbaba namin ng jeep... may kumalat pang balita na kanselado ang LANTERN PARADE..BWISIT!!.. tila walang kwenta ang araw na yun..

nadatnan lang namin ang mobilisasyon ng mga magaaral para sa "Barikada" na nagnais na pigilan ang pagpupulong ng Board of Regents na tataasan ang tuition ng 300%..(tangina.. hello 25,000 na babayaran ko..sa LaSalle e 13,000 nalang dahil sa scholarship ko..hehe..but can you really compare?..hehe).....si Aries..bilang kumakatawan sa AnakBayan, e sumisigaw na na kami'y magtungo sa Quezon Hall.. ininterview pa ako ng ABS-CBN kung saan sa aking tarantang-taranta ako at kung anu-ano pinagsasasabi ko..buti hindi na-air..hehe...(f*ck!)

ako at si Maritess e humiwalay na dahil nais naming malaman kung may Lantern Parade parin..

ang gulo!..una meron..sunod wala..tapos meron tapos wala..

naawa kami sa Fine Arts kasi ang gaganda ng floats nila.. talagang pinaghirapan..bute na lang at napagdesisyunan ng Admin na hayaang ituloy ng FA ang kanilang parada..andun kami.. mukhang mga extra.. hahahaha.. :P

at natuloy nga ang parada..

ngunit ang totoong trahedya sa araw na ito.e pareho kami ng damit ni Nikko!!.. bwisit!!!!.. mukha tuloy naming pinagplanuhan.. e malay ko ba?!..hahaha..

pasensya sa medyo hindi cohesive na post..natuyo ang aking utak kahapon e..10 oras kami naglalalakad..hehehe..

umuwi kami ng may suot-suot na sungay na binili namin sa may Abelardo Hall... sa MRT..at sa jeep e suot2 namin.. pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao.. pero WALA AKONG PAKI..

were you there?..share your experiences naman.. basta.. ang akin e...nung gabi........... naglipana ang mga "sights to behold"..hahahahahahahahahaha..

TV TIME: where is the sense of quality?

2006-12-11T21:36:00.000-05:00

TV TIME: where is the sense of quality?

tuwing dumarating si mama sa bahay matapos ang isang araw ng pagtatrabaho sa minahan diyan sa Quirino na tinatawag na Allied Bank.... anu mang palabas sa anu mang tyanel sa TV na aking pinapanood ay nararapat nang ilipat kasi manonood na ang aking inang KAPAMILYA ng Channel2...

may choice akong umakyat at doon manuod.. ngunit minsan ay medyo di ko feel mag-isa doon sa kwarto kaya tinitiis ko nalang ang panonood ng Channel2...

Eto lang ang kumento ko sakanila.. naaasar ako sa Channel2 kasi kahit anung sumisikat..sure na sure na isusungalngal nila sa tao ang naturang sikat na ito.. tignan niyu si Yeng.. nabuburaot na ako sa "Hawak Kamay" niya.. kasi halos sa lahat ng pagkakataon e pineplay nila yung kanta..

Tapos minsan e katangahan lang ang pinapakita nila... just for the sake of kilig.. nasan ang Quality TV dun?

Sa mga KAPAMILYA eto ang mga PINAKA-AYAW KO...

JAY-R SIABOC: mukha siyang daga pag kumakanta...akala mo kung sinong may itsura..
LUIS MANZANO: ala kang 'K' umarte.. WALA!!! ang landi mong magsalita!!
JOSEPH BITANGCOL: ewan ko sayo...sana nagkaron ka ng screen name.. ang kornee mo rin umarte!!
GERALD ANDERSON: mukha kang unggoy..iisa lang ang facial expression mo sa LAHAT ng ginagawa mu..
SHAINA MAGDAYAO at RAYVER CRUZ: bakit nga ba? kayo na sumagot..
ZSAZSA PADILLA: umarte ka naman ng age mo..feeling super bata ka pa e..
PIOLO PASCUAL: dude....we all know.. STOP WITH THE DENIAL...

yan lang ang pumasok sa utak ko ngayon..pero I'm sure na mas marami pa...

anyhoo.... today ang Oblation Run ng UPmanila.. sa Biyernes na ang sa UPdiliman..... Oye..

uh....what?

2006-12-10T22:57:00.000-05:00

uh....what?

my brain.. my body.. my soul.. have all together filed a class action suit.. They have been harrassed and are now demanding just compensation in the amount of a million dollars... the defendant: the dreary atmosphere of the past couple of days... Lacking in excitement and revelry...

I woke up this morning feeling so numb and stiff.. the exercises I've been doing must be starting to take it's toll on my body.. I felt a little soreness here and there... but as they say.. NO PAIN.NO GAIN..

I commanded my body to get up from bed and traverse my room to get to the door.. I had woken up at around 9.. the earliest in a couple of weeks.. and my legs were just acting on impulse.. my brain was still slumbering and dreaming of a happy place filled with something unspeakable...

I forced my mouth to open up and ingest the food I imperiously put in it.. chew... swallow.. all of which were done reluctantly.. I had not eaten breakfast in 7 years...

I watched the Amazing Race Finale kanina.. Tyler and James won.. hooray for the beautiful people!!..hahahaha.. they quashed the unsightly opposition posed to them by the Bamas.. but wait....the peons equalize with Mau Marcelo winning Philippine Idol.... but in the end.. they clinch the tourney with Rosita's elimination....

Naawa ako kay Rosita... dumating pa naman si Brit for her... aaaww.. kagabi bumalik ang aking fanhood...

2 parties to go...

the White Christmas party on the 16th.... Glamour?.. C'est nous!..

my farewell party on the 22nd....

**I've got a lot to do... but my body is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo paralyzed with sloth right now.. fans.. pray for my recovery....

**In no mood to put colors... in the next post probably...

The Forsaken: I Survived to Tell the Tale

2006-12-09T06:00:00.000-05:00

The Forsaken: I Survived to Tell the Tale

just got back from a day of shopping.. First stop was Divisoria... and the open air was filled with the stench of sweat and vinegar with a tang of lemon juice.. yes.. it was that intense.. The moment I set foot on the concrete road filled with cracks and plastic bags, I started to feel a bit tired and queezy.. I didn't know why.. I'm used to shopping for a long time..(the longest of which was 10 hours) and walking around aint a problem for me usually..

but today.. It was as if I could no longer walk another minute with the immense burden I seemed to carry... I wanted to leave very badly.. so as soon as we were able to buy my hand luggage for my trip(although it came from Divi.. it looks pretty dang good!)..I refused my mom's offer to eat at Jollibee to refresh my senses and told her we'd better get going..(who refuses Jollibee?? WHO?!?).. I was slowly losing my will to walk.. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and assume the fetal position with the mental and physical depravity that I was experiencing..

We ended up in Robinson's Place Manila (can we go somewhere else? I can navigate this mall with my eyes closed..) to continue our shopping.. On the way.. it took the jeepney nearly an hour to break free from the magnetic grip of what me and my pals call DIVOIR... and in the process..I think I got a stiff-neck..f*ck..

I had to eat.... I felt like what I ate for lunch no longer existed... So it was off to Teriyaki Boy.. I gulped in my meal.. only at the middle did I remember to keep my composure and poise.. yes dearest fans.. I sometimes forget that people look..hehehe..

After that.. I told my mom that the shopping could continue.... and it did... but I wasn't able to buy anything... I had lost the will to rumage... I was just a mere follower as my mom went on about how cute this looked or how pretty this looked or how expensive this looked.. or how good this would look on me.. I just agreed with her... I had no constitution to argue...

DIVISORIA RUINED MY DAY... 'nuff said...

Vanity- thy name is MAN!

2006-12-07T22:29:00.000-05:00

Vanity- thy name is MAN!

I had my haircut last wednesday... It was the first time I had it in 2 months..(yeah..I know..so unlikely of me).. but recent events, which I no longer wish to think about, threw my biological schedule off... I had breakouts.. I started to look a bit older... and I started to gain a little weight...

don't misconstrue..this isn't a sentimental post..on the contrary.. this is a celebration post... I'M BACK TO MY OLD SELF!!.. my breakouts are clearing again..save for the red marks left by those satanic pustules... I'm looking my age again!..hehehe..my desire to look good has returned... and I'm exercising my ass off again to keep my body in shape...

last night.. before going to sleep.. my mom and I had a very lively discussion about how superficial this world is.. I said that it is unfortunate that aesthetics is a very important aspect of contemporary society..and that if we want to be competetive in life and in love(ahem).. you have to maintain a certain standard when it comes to appearance...Hence..the perpetuation of all those products that cater to women..ansd more recently..to men

Although I said "unfortunate".. I didn't mean that I wasn't a follower.. In this world na araw-araw e bombarded ng images of what's acceptable and what's attractive.. naiimpluwensyahan ang mga tao lalo na ang kabataan..hehehe..

I DECLARE: I AM A NARCISSIST... most of my spare time..I use to satisfy the conviction of my own vanity.. It takes me around 20-30 minutes to take a bath... 20 minutes to accomplish my grooming rituals..then another 15 minutes to see whether what I'm wearing is appropriate or if it suits me for the occasion...That's why kapag ang usapan ay 3..1 palang e naliligo na ako..hehe..

I am currently on a crusade to expunge the red marks... It is at the vanguard of my current short-term priorities(but it doesn't mean that that's all that I think about a..it just occupies most of my spare time)..hehe..and nowadays..I never leave the house, even on regular "non-gimmick" days, without wax on my hair and sublock on my body and fez....

So sue me..

2 things that made me blog today...

2006-12-06T22:37:00.000-05:00

2 things that made me blog today...

"I am irate. I am foaming at the mouth. I'm homicidal. I'm suicidal. I'm humiliated, debased, degraded..."

"If the Filipino people thought that I was good enough to be president of the republic in 1992 were it not for the devilish and satanic machinations of the septuagenarian (former president Fidel V. Ramos) yet the JBC turned its back on public opinion. Who of them graduated with honors from UP? Let them take the law school aptitude test and let’s see if they will pass,"

Here here Miriam!!.. hahaha.. this just reenforces my fascination with her lunacy.. I just wonder if the time will come when it is I who will utter such venomous words.. I CANNOT WAIT.. hehehe..

Meanwhile.. it is with a heavy heart that I decalre that I am no longer a Rosita fan... her ugali has made me rethink my allegiance(nyok!) at napagdesosyunan kong wala nalang akong kakampihan....

Speaking of LUNACY... here is a picture of loons.. a class picture that was taken one year late...inside the liliputian MaScian auditorium...... around 400 days overdue..

Booze Fest

2006-12-04T22:56:00.001-05:00

Booze Fest

Tomorrow is Quiapo Day for Candice and me.. I'm gonna canvass na for the party give-aways.. That's a new tradition I'm gonna start na.. When I throw a party.. I'm gonna hand-out give-aways for people to remember me as the greatest party-thrower this side of Manila.. hehehe..

Ang kalaban ko lang naman sa Party-throwing ay si Kim..(the girl na naka-lean sa akin sa pic diyan sa gilid--Am I right na medyo kahawig niya si Lia Cruz, the ADMU UAAP courtside reporter??).. sangkatutak na pagkain at billiards ang panlaban niya sa akin.. at ang laki ng bahay nila.. So.. I make it up with booze!!!!...hahahaha.. :) to this date..8 people have passed out in my house because they drank to much..It's either Tequila.. beer.. gin.. scotch(for the feeling-aristocratic)..vodka..et al..the sight of people with heads on the table lookin' like dead-meat is so attractive..hahahahahahahaha!!

I'm gonna try and buy another big bottle of Jose Cuervo Tequila kasi ittry kong gumawa ng cocktail drinks..

Haaay... 2 parties to go before I induce a party-hiatus of at least 5 months.... It's gonna be like an end of an era....

Dancing in the Streets

2006-12-03T21:36:00.000-05:00

Dancing in the Streets: Patakda.....KAD!

Mo Twister: How would you assess your team's performance a while ago?
Girl Street Dancer from UE: so *(inhale)*cool!

[hahahahaha..that really tore me up]

*randomize()

--I went to the Skechers Street Dance Competition at the Araneta Coliseum last Saturday. And my oh my.. it was a feast!..hehe.. Aside from all the spectacular and fabulous dance moves and techniques.. the atmosphere was also jampacked with hotness *ahem*.. but unfortunately.. I wasn't able to do any sort of hunting because I was worrying about how I was gonna be able to go home..the affair ended at around 10 in the evening and the MRT and LRT would already be closed by then.. Thank God for Ranz and Ren...Gad I need a car..UPd won.. yeahba!!.. but MAPUA scared me..I thought they might take the crown from UPd...

--I miss CAT.. It was one of the subjects I looked forward to nuong HS..Especially when there was no reporting and all we did was to practice our drills at ang birthday bash.. where we threw eggs..rotten icing.. soy sauce.. flour and mud at the birthday boy/girl.. bute ako e di naabutan..hehehe..

**"Pinuno! Kadete Ampil nag-uulat na po!"

**Komandant: "Ampil sinung crush mo?!"

**"Pinuno wala po!"

**Komandant: "Sinungaling! Drop and give me 20!"...hahahaha..

--I still have to plan for my despedida party.... the food's planned.. the give-aways is planned(op op op..may tangang mag-cocomment tungkol sa grammar ko.. "give-aways" in this case is considered singular-collective).. the liquor-money has been budgeted... all that's left is the RSVPing... Gad.. how will I fit 20 people in my house???

--Apparently..Lance Corporal Daniel Smith is guilty of rape according sa Makati RTC.. Please don't call me upatriotic.. but I don't believe he raped her... I think this is a case of ruined pseudocinservatism..

And I'm Telling You!

2006-11-29T22:37:00.000-05:00

And I'm Telling You!

Malapit na ipalabas ang Dream Girls.... I don't know if I can watch it.. most of my friends are kuripot..

***yes...you're all gonna love me... (evil laughter)

by the way... CALLING ALL MASCIANS NA NATURUAN NI MA'AM IMMACULADA GUMBOC either sa Finite Mathematics o sa Analytic Geometry/Elementary Calculus... Let's pray for the speedy recuperation of her husband.. almost 2 months na siyang nasa coma... Einstein05, specially, tayo'y mag pitch in naman...

The Last Goodbye: Fare well to knights of old...

2006-11-26T23:39:00.000-05:00

with this post... I finish this chapter of my life... as of today... I AM, once again, ON THE HUNT..

The Last Goodbye: Fare well to knights of olden days...

Papalapit na ang kapaskuhan.. nagsimula na kaming magdecorate ng bahay: Nililinisan na ang Christmas Tree na 10 taon na naming ginagamit.. Kinakabit na ang mga Christmas Lights na sa bawat pagtatapos ng pasko ay laging may 5 o higit pang bumbilyang napupundi... Ang mga senyales ng pag-aalala sa pagkakasilang ng Poong Maykapal ay nasa hangin na..

ang pinaka-mabigat na senyales ay ang aking pagsisimula na mag-ipon para sa mga reregaluhan ko ngayong Pasko... Andyan ang aking mga kabarkada.. mga 20 ata sila.. hehe.. andyan si mama at ang aking tita... at...kung di lang nagkanda leche-leche ang lahat.. andyan din sana ang noo'y nagmamay-ari ng aking puso....hehehe...

naaalala ko noong Pasko last year..wala akong regalo sa kanya.. pero siya..may regalo sa akin... coin purse.. kahit ako'y natawa at ikinumpara ito sa picture frame (sabi ko pag may nagregalo sa akin ng picture frame ihahampas ko yung frame sa pader).. ako'y natouch parin.. kahit ala akong gift sa kanya ay nagregalo pa siya...

bago dumating ang delubyo ng huling huwebes ng Oktubre...nag-iisip na ako kung ano ang mareregalo ko sakanya.. naisip ko noon na tila gusto ko siyang regaluhan ng "something...nice..and something naughty"... hehe.. kasi.. nice siya sa harap...naughty siya sa loob..hehehehe..

ngunit nangyari ang nangyari... I spent the first few days crying in bed... wondering why I let myself be that big of a fool... but then... my mom introduced me to a word that liberated(hehe) me from the spectre known as "THE DARK"....

CATHARSIS- to purge.. in tagalog.. pagpurga.. Sa sarili ko.. ako'y naghanap ng maaaring magpaligaya sa akin... at for the first time in a long time.. I didn't rely on others for my happiness...CATHARTIC in a CONUNDRUM...- at first nahirapan ako.. kasi ba naman.. I was wallowing in despair and sadness.. I couldn't find that beacon of hope... hanggang malasing ako ng mga barkada ko.... at kinabukasan... sa sakit ng aking ulo..at tiyang nagrerebolusyon... umayos na ang aking pakiramdam... CATHARTIC out of a CONUNDRUM...

pero minsan...pag wala akong ginagawa(like now).. hindi ko parin mapigilang isipin siya...at ang gabing iyun.. when it seemed like the roof was gonna give in on me.. and we were locked inside that house...no way out...and I find myself three steps backward...wherein I have to go back to those beautiful memories I have na hindi siya kasama...after half an hour or so.. I'm back...

sabi nila.. Christmas daw is a time of forgiveness.. as God forgave man for their sins.. so should we daw... unfortunately... I don't think na I have the constitution to forgive yet...

We'll have a party sa December... I don't know kung pupunta siya... The awkwardness would be cosmic..

Ngiti nalang tayo... frowning adds 10 years to your complexion...

COUNTDOWN TO THE UP OBLATION RUN: 18 DAYS... (DECEMBER 15)

**PULA AT LUNTIAN LUMALABAN! UP SUGOD! HUH!!**

The Days of Our Lives: The Returnee

2006-11-24T22:16:00.000-05:00

The Days of Our Lives: The Returnee

I have just recently encountered in my sporadic web surfings the site of "The Coconuter".. and you know what.. it really warms my heart.. you know.. the effort that he's going through just to be able to survive here in the Philippines.. Diba.. most Filipinos are desperately trying to get to the United States.. tas siya.. na dun na nakatira (being a Fil-Am and all) e nagdecide na dito na mamalagi.. which I find SO INSPIRATIONAL.. parang siya ay isang neo-paradigm ng isang Balikbayan.. He has everything that he could ever need there.. money.. clothes.. an ivy-league education (which I hope to have come Graduate Studies days).. and his family as well.. He was living the Fil-Am dream!.. But.. ayon sakanya.. e di daw niya mahanap ang sarili niya doon... So... it was off to Zambales... (I ask,, why not Manila?)

I find the story a bit surprising at first.. but commendable none the less... But I do feel loads of compassion towards the guy kasi he really has to STRUGGLE to be able to cope with the tide of hardships na kaakibat ng buhay-pinas...

I do, however, find that with the credentials he has.. e hindi pa ata siya nakakahanap ng right opportunity for him...methinks he more than deserves it...

http://coconuter.blogspot.com/2004/12/my-resume.html (his resume)

(nagulantang ako sa kanyang credentials... pwede bang humingi ako ng onti?..hehe)

and the guy already has a family to support... so let's help The Coconuter in anyway we can..visit his site if you haven't already done so...(the link is in my side bar)... kaya spread the word.. MABUHAY ANG COCONUTER!

When Good meets Bad-Part2: HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN ARAO! (actually.. belated na)

2006-11-20T22:56:00.000-05:00

When Good meets Bad-Part2: HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN ARAO! (actually.. belated na)

Kevin Arao and me.. hehehe.. nung 1st day of the official vacation nung 4th year.. i swear we didn't agree na green ang isusuot namin.. hehehe.. :)

Kevin- crush ng lower years ng MaSci.. ilang girls na ang nag-ask saking picturan siya.. haha.. i tell them that they have no taste..hehe

-galing mag-gitara.. but didn't fulfill his promise to teach me.. ATRASO!

-sucks at singing!.. (remember your HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDICE song?..hahahaha)

-tinawag akong mababaw at pina-iyak ako a week before graduation at iniwan akong naghahagulgol sa harap ng school..bute dumating si Donald.. hehehe..

-showbiz ang luvlyf! ("we're just friends" effect ka diyan)

-nagkamali ang dentista at nasira ang ngipin niya.. muka na siya ngayong daga.. hehehe..

-SOBRANG LAKI NG KANYANG EGO!... to compensate for something??... hahahahaha.. joke..

-pero good friend yan...hehe..one of my best friends... my brother.. :) ..Labyu Bro! :)

***ang tanong.. kelan lalambot ang tuod mong dila?.. hahahaha.. peace! :)

Independence Day: a journey back to a past long forgotten

2006-11-20T03:04:00.000-05:00

Independence Day: a journey back to a past not yet forgotten

"i wish..... i wish things could go back to the way they were.... before all this happened... before all this wretchedness came into our lives.."

Admit it(again)... there's always that nagging voice inside your brain that shouts how much he/she wishes to go back to the way things were before you said those stupid words..or did that stupid thing.. or before whatever disaster fell upon you and your loved one(s) that destroyed whatever dreams and aspirations you held so dear...

everyday.. the voice gets louder and louder.. No matter how much you try to ignore it.. bury it.. try not to listen to it.. it becomes a part of your everyday thinking... until you yourself voice it out...

"i wish things were back to the way they were.. nung ok pa kami.. nung ala pang problema.."

and sometimes.. those words make an attempt to materialize.. ikaw.. with all the hurt you've gone through.. you still make an effort to mend or undo whatever damage was done... na bibili ka ng isang libo o kaya'y mas marami pang mga band-aid.. gauze.. betadine at alcohol para lamang ma-gamot ang kasiraang naganap...

and sometimes.. it seems to work.. nag-uusap kayo about stuff.. nagtetext.. nagiinteract... but something in it seems irrecoverable already... para bang may kulang na sa inyong dalawa.. a (or more) a fissure of some sort.. and try as you might... you can't seem to plug that hole anymore... and then we are left feeling so frustrated and unsatisfied...

but we persist... human nature tells that when dealing with emotions.. the primordial mind takes over and effectively shut-down the complex thinking mush we call our brains... wala nang rationality ang pag-iisip.. just a last-dicth effort to save whatever could be saved.... but still... it's futile... things could never go back to the way they were...

its the paradox of life... even if you improve on certain aspects of the relationship that we didn't before... it's still quite impossible to revert to the once peaceful time that the people concerned shared...

so why then do we do it?... unfortunately.. as socially-active and bond-needing beings we are.. we crave for that semblance of the past that made us soooooo happy back then... it's inculcated in our minds- that feeling of bliss and weightlessness pati narin yung burning passion that that person fired up sa loob loob natin...and we can't see ourselves without it... para bang addiction...

We then find ourselves trapped in a choice we know we have to make... do we leave it behind?.. or do we stay and just deal with it?... Come on... as sensitive individuals... can we really just adapt and just ignore that little voice telling you that you can't handle the change? If we choose to stay.. para kang may stockholm syndrome....you sympathize with your captors.. tas parang battered wife syndrome din!..you know it's degrading and bad.. but you choose to remain...a prisoner...

but...in the end... that craving... one way or another...gets extinguished... because even if we exhaust our persistence...just like in the Law of Physics wherein Time cannot have a negative value... things just can never be like they were before.. once altered, alter back no more........ all that's left is the wish we made.... and whatever notion of "self" we still have left... just realized it yesterday....well... Let Freedom Ring...

***

in another topic... amidst the noise and hullabaloo pacquiao created.. let us also recognize the Philippine National Football Team for winning against Cambodia nung Saturday... Viva las personas de Filipinas!!

***

UPDATE!

nanalo nanaman ang team philippines kagabi versus Brunei!..weeeh!!.. TODO NA TO!

Trust: Breaking the Ties that Bind, and the Eternal Glue

2006-11-17T06:09:00.000-05:00

Trust: Breaking the Ties that Bind, and "the Eternal Glue"

Shame on you if you fool me once.. shame on me if you fool me twice.. But what about if I got fooled 3 times?

admit it.. at least once in your life..to date.. there's this one person who keeps on fooling you.. yet you keep on giving him/her the trust that other people have to work extra hard to earn... Isang lambing lang mula sa taong iyon e tila nagiging gelatin ang iyong tuhod..pati narin ang iyong resolve! It is an unfortunate incident when what you so desperately told yourself you wont give up (your pride) suddenly vanishes in a puff of thick...gray smoke...

so much for being steadfast..

The cycle goes on and on.. you get fooled.. you get mad.. he/she cajoles you.. you fall for it.. then you get fooled again ..you get mad.. he/she cajoles you again.. and you fall for it again...

Apparently.. to those people.. our trust is an unlimited commodity... one only needs to lay his/her head on your shoulders... say "I'm sorry... you forgive me right?" and then the entire incident seems but a figment of your imagination...

I plea guilty on this charge.. TOO MANY A TIME have I told myself over a shotglass of tequila or a glass of vodka that I will stick to my pride and tell that person to get out of my life.. and TOO MANY A TIME+one have such resolutions been worth nothing all because of an embrace.. a tickle.. and......other forms of "physical contact"...

giving the gift of the benefit of the doubt is already so exasperating.. and yet.. we keep on exacerbating our metaphorical supply...

It is only now that I realize that everytime I forgive and forget in a span of 3 seconds, my dignity is diminished by gargantuan proportions... where is the sense of individual esteem and rational selfishness in that regard? Ibinibigay natin ang ating pagkatao sa isang tao na tila wala namang pakialam sa iyo because he/she does not hold your pride and dignity as a possesion they should care for and value... basura lang yun sa kanila... SCORE 1 for the players of this world.. and for the rest of us... GOD SAVE OUR SOULS...

bitterness?.. no.. just a realization and an epiphany.. It's time that I (as well as all the other victims of this form of emotional abuse) regain our STOLEN selves... because in the end.. it's all we've really got...

market market 2

2006-11-14T21:46:00.001-05:00

when i started my blog around April.. only 2 people were in my links.. hehehe.. ngayong medyo marami na.. nais ko lang ibahagi sa inyo ang kauna-unahan kong post (na may edit na ng onti.. ehehe).. in celebration of my 131st post.. hahaha.. :) in retrospect..I wish I listened to what I wrote down..would have saved me a lot of time sulking... selective processing ata ang M.O. ng utak ko e....... I had such delusions of grandeur about my blog back then... I told myself that all I was going to talk about were things that were socially relevant and touches on human interest... May the Blog gods forgive me for my transgressions....

Market Market: Investing in Relationships and the Stakes

In the regular flow of things, the stock market is the basis of assessing the progress of a certain economy or nation. If the stocks are up, the index also goes up and everyone, especially the investors, are happy. If the stocks are down, the index is also down and the entire exchange starts pointing fingers at each other for being a bad broker or whatever.

In the scheme called friendship, there are also stocks, or stakes, whatever. If things go up, that is, kung ang mga bagay ay maganda at ang pagkakaibigan ay nagpapa-angat sa bawat isa, masaya ang lahat. Everything seems fine and there's no cause for alarm or anything. Kung mag-away naman bigla, bababa ang stock ng friendship at magkakaroon ng pagkawindang sa relasyon ng dalawa o higit pang involved sa nasabing pagbagsak ng stakes..o stocks..whatever again.

So, obviously, the okay scenario here is to keep the stocks high. And the only way to do that is to keep investing.

In the market, you can raise the stocks by putting in a greater amount of money into that stock or venture in the hopes of reaping the gains that is supposed to be reaped from the said venture or stock. If, by luck, ay umangat ng umangat ang halaga nung stock, maliligayahan ang lahat lalo na ang mga investor because their investment paid off.

If we are to link a relationship with this, then we are to say that we should do the same with the said relationship. Especially with those close friends that we have. Yung mga kaibigan nating hindi natin kayang mawala. We invest a lot in the relationship. And again, we hope that the stocks go up.

If the stocks go up, not only in friendship, but also in other forms of relationships, the stakes also get higher. If we get to a point kung saan nasa tugatog na tayo ng ating pakikipagrelasyon, in the eventuality of a crash, mas mahihirapan tayong makabangon muli! In the aspect of economics: if you invest a lot in a single venture, and it crashes, then you lose your capital, you go broke. The same goes for a relationship na sobrang high ng level! You keep on investing and investing til you've given everything for the sake of the relationship. And again, should the periodic depressions come, you go down with everything. You end up a shriveled down putz; a shmuck; miserable and filled with animosity and regret.

When the stocks go up, the stakes go even higher. What's the remedy? More appropriately, why do we keep investing?

That's a question that I myself have been askin for the entire span of my adolescent life (eversince the idea of relationships entered the door of my mind) The only answer that I've gotten, and I don't know if it'll satisfy anything, is because we are social beings; we thrive on social contact and expansion. The mere fact that we enter into relationships gives this. But the idea of investing is because most of us believe that the relationship is worth something more than what society dictates as the normal level. We feel that the connection between the parties deserves attention and care a bit higher than that of the others. Moreover, we know that we love the other party and that we care immensely for him/her/them. If we thought otherwise then we would have just settled for a relationship as shallow as an acquaintance.

We cannot completely, or even partially, escape crashes in relationships. In the end, it remains up to us where we draw the ceiling mark. But then again, if we think that the connection is worth a lot to us, why not take the risk?

Eurotrip in the Heart of Manila

2006-11-14T04:57:00.000-05:00

Eurotrip in the Heart of Manila

Friday spells SPLURGE DAY for me!!.. I'm going out with some of my friends (at this point.. isa pa lang ang nag-coconfirm) to bask in the Cine Europa experience.. Finally.. we get to experience some art and culture dito sa hyper-commercialized Manila.. siyempre.. ang venue e Shangri La.. buti na lang at planado narin ang aking isusuot para sa araw na yun.. hehehe.. (siyempre.. when in Rome..do as the Romans do.. so dress as the Romans dress narin!)

was supposed to watch a movie yesterday.. but it didn't push through.. so I'm gonna fill my tanks for Friday... Then Eastwood...NOW Shangri La...

I attribute this gala to aahhhron.. hehehe.. I saw in his blog that it was gonna be free... SO WHY PASS IT UP?.. from UPd.. poproceed kaming Shangri La... THANK GOD FOR THE MRT!

CINE EUROPA runs from Nov. 9 to 19 at the 6th level of the Shangri La Plaza.. :)

hope to see some of you guys there!..hehe.. (malay diba.. :P)

Stop the Insane Dreams!

2006-11-13T04:37:00.000-05:00

Stop the Insane Dreams!

Magandang hapon sa inyong lahat mga friends! isang nakakapagod na araw nanaman siguro ito lalo na sa mga nagsisimula pa lamang pumasok..(shout out sa mga nag-aaral sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas-Manila)...

lately I've been having these weird dreams... pertaining to... at first... what recently happened to me.. nagkakahalo.. for example.. nung Saturday-Sunday.. ang panaginip ko was about me.. na medyo nagiging plastik sa harap nung "kryptonite word" ko (meaning yun yung name ng tao na BAWAL imention sa akin..hehehe)..you know.. kahit gusto kong basagin muka niya e nakangiti lang ako.. at nagkkwentuhan pa daw kami..

then it'll suddenly turn SILENT HILL NIGHTMARE MODE..

ang panaginip tungkol kay "kryptonite word" e nagiging tungkol sa demonyong sinasapian ako.. nanggaling daw sa aking kabinet na puno ng damit yung demonyo.. tas ginamitan daw niya ako ng hanger para sakalin ako.. at ako daw..with ALL MY MIGHT e lumaban.. you know.. with the crumpled face and shit..

tas kanina naman.. nanaginip ako na I was back sa aking elementary school kung saan ako'y nagsostroll sa kanilang napakalaking campus.. tas andun naman daw si "he-who-must-never-be-uttered"(iba siya kay kryptonite word) tas nagpromise daw siya na di na mauulit and shit.. tas ako naman.. in my ever-guillible state..nagpa-uto naman daw.. BOBO.. I would just like to remind you na porket sa dream e ginawa ko. it doesn't mean e gagawin ko rin in real life..

then I couldn't find kung nasan na siya.. biglaan.. tas nasa may canteen daw ako bigla na ang tanging daanan e isang lumang CR.. kailangan mo pa daw dumaan through the CR bago ka makapasok sa canteen.. yuck.. may party daw dun sa canteen.. at ako daw e hinahanap ko siya.. pati si Candice(wee!..parang kilala niyu siya nuh?..) ..ewan ko kung bakit..

then things went all SILENT HILL again..just minus the siren.. yung CR biglang naging mala-demonyong lugar..tas may boses akong narinig na puros demonic and ungodly stuff ang pinagsasabi... and I was running and screaming like there was no tomorrow...

then I woke up..

ang weird noh?.. this has been going on for at least the past couple of days...sana naman mamaya e tapos na to noh!!.. mababaliw na ako sa paggising na hinihingal at pawis na pawis kahit may air-con!

anyway.. congrats sa DLSU Green Archers kahapon.. tinalo nila by 11 points ang aking dreamteam na ang Ateneo Blue Eagles... ang gagaling nila a.. so this is what a year of suspension does to a team... hhhmmm... something UP should consider!!.. hehehe.. joke lang.. :) ..kaya natin to UP!!

dear God,

Please make UP a competetive team next year sa Seniors men's basketball

as in top4 o championship material na!!

amen..

hehehe.. :)

galing ni Simon Atkins pati si Maierhofer.. saludo.. pero GO ATENEO parin!!.. hehehe..

Ang Paglalakbay Ni Chino-Zizou sa Kataastaasang at Kagalanggalangang Komisyon ng mga Filipino sa Ibayong-Dagat

2006-11-09T22:04:00.000-05:00

Ang Paglalakbay Ni Chino-Zizou sa Kataastaasang at Kagalanggalangang Komisyon ng mga Filipino sa Ibayong-Dagat

(kwento in the 3rd person)

Nagbalik si Zizou mula sa kanyang napakagandang panaginip sa Mundong-Ibabaw (maaaring dahil ang naturang panaginip ay dinala siya sa impyerno sa "kabutihan" nito..hehe) nang tumunog ang kanyang alarm clock sa cell phone niyang gusto na niyang ihampas sa pader sa ka-cheapan...

3 oras ang inaga ng kanyang pag-gising. 7:30 palang iyon at kadalas'y alas onze ang gising niya.. agad siyang naligo at nag-ayos ng sarili upang magmukhang presentable sa mga makakaharap niyang mga kapwa teenedyer(wahahahaha!!) sa KOMISYON NG MGA FILIPINO SA IBAYONG-DAGAT, isang prerequisite bago siya maka-alis ng Pilipinas.. wari isa itong Guidance Counseling program ng Gobyerno upang ihanda ang mga lilipat sa ibang bansa sa kanilang mga nararapat na gawin dun...

Nilakad lang niya ito mula sa kanyang bahay dahil napaka-lapit lang ng Quirino sa kanila.. isang kalsada lamang ang namamagitan.. Pagdating niya doon.. SIYA'Y NAGULAT sa kinasapitan ng kanyang kapwa Emigrants...........

Ang mga kabataan ngayon na aalis patungong Amerika ay tila nangangailangan ng tulong sa pananamit!!! ARTICLE A, B at C! AVANT GARDE BA ITO???

naka-cordoroy pants na BASTON na puti yung isang lalake
yung isang babae e tila bumangon lang sa kama at dumiretso na doon at di man lang naisipang magsuklay ng buhok...
yung isa ay may bonnet na ala Bob Marley na mukhang pam-panadero.. yung parang galing Baguio na may yellow.. red.. green.. black at iba pa.. dude.. Wear that in Baguio..

At eto pa ang kanyang nalaman....

pagdating niya sa Estados Unidos ay nangangailangan siyang mag sign-up sa Military-Service-Selective-Program nito.. kung saan at any time ay maaari siyang tawagin ng gobyerno ng Amerika at ipadala sa kung saang sulok ng mundo... CONGRATZ TALAGA!!! anu naman kaya ang gagawin niya doon?.. MAGSHUSHOE-SHINE?.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! (Friends...GM!..remember?..hahahaha)

tinatakan na ang passport niya matapos ito at siya'y umuwi na at nagpagupit sapagkat pinipilit na siya ng kanyang mga kaibigan na magpagupit..

***

Bakit ba ang dami ng jokes sa text tungkol sa etits?.. kagabi ang dami kong natanggap.. mga 4 atang bersyon ng iisang pormat.. hahahahahaha..

"Bakit tuwing nagagalit ako natutuwa siya?"- etits
"Bakit tuwing hinahawakan ako e sumusuka ako?"- etits
"Bakit ba nila ako ginagawang pantoothbrush?"- etits
"Bakit tuwing nagagalit ako e sinasakal nila ako?"- etits

to think nanggaling yan lahat sa text na:

"bakit ba tuwing nagmamahal ako e nagagalit sila?"- gasolina... ang mga tao nga naman.. CONSERBATIB TALAGA!!

party!!!!!

2006-11-07T06:32:00.000-05:00

The Rape of Nanking (modesto style)

ang linnae nga naman kapag nag-paparty e sobrang predictable.. DELUBYO ang mangyayari!! THANK YOU TO THE PARTY PEOPLE FOR RE-DESTROYING THE LEG OF THE SOFA BED! wala nang kwenta yung mga ginawa ko para magpantay uli yun!!..

nakakatuwa at nadagdagan ang Linnae party-ers ng 2..hahahaha.. after almost 5 parties with the same faces e nadagdag sila Anj at Candice.. Since it is held in Manila.. most of the UPd people cannot make it.. E ako?.. UPd stationed in Manila.. hahahaha..(can't wait to enroll!!!..MY GALLY!!.. ang hirap ng enrollment process sa UPd!!)

One characteristic of Linnaean parties is the COMPLETE LACK OF DECORUM!!.. lahat ng breeding at class e iniiwan sa pintuan oras na buksan na ang container ng pagkain.. guilty din ako diyan!!.. hahaha.. wala ng mga paki sa aming "manners"..hehehehe..

isang magandang example e yung nangyari kanina... nag-order kami ng pizza..2 box so 16 slices.. e 9 kami.. nung una ay may "concerned effect" pa kami sa mga maaaring hindi makakain.. pero nang lumipas ang 3 segundo.. nagkanya-kanyang agawan na sa pizza ang mga tao.. AS IN AGAWAN!!.. malingat ka lang e may kukuha na ng stuffed-crust mu.. hahahahahaha..ANG CHEAP.. stuffed crust lang agawan pa.. hahahahaha..

matapos iyun ay nagsimula nanamang gawing bahay-rape ang bahay ko.. hahahaha.. pag walang guys halos.. girls ang hinuhubaran ng gilrs.. pero pag maeron.. lahat ng male guests e "ginagahasa" ng mga girls.. hahahahahahahaha.. HUBARAN DAW!!..(Aying knows this all too well..hehehe) bwahahahahahahaha.. so ang unang puntirya e tanggalin ang pantalon!!.. hahahahaha.. kahit anong palag ang gawin ng mga boys and girls e wala na silang magawa... unless sipain o kalmutin nila yung mga nanghuhubad sa kanila.. hahaha.. WAWA.. ako e naging biktima na niyan.. sinira nila ang Square.Pants ko na binili ko pa sa Divisoria.. UNIQUE at MAMAHALIN!!.. hahahahaha.. :)

at ang victims today... Anj(my golly.. nakita na ang kaluluwa mu dear..)..si Candice(na nakapalag dahil kinalmot si Aza).. at si Keb(as usual)...

natapos ang gabi ng nag-usap kaming puro "kalinisan" at "kainosentehan".. walang halo ng kabastusan.. I SWEAR.. HINDI KO KAYO NILILINLANG.. hahahahahahaha.. :) ..and to think e conservative kaming lahat.. hahahahahaha.. :)

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LORD THANK YOU AT ANLIGTAS SI MAU AT GIAN!! THANK YOU ALSO SA KAPANGYARIHAN NG LUPA!!

all at once

2006-11-05T22:29:00.000-05:00

ALL AT ONCE...

announcement ng "mega-portey" ng Linnae bago magsimula ang 2nd semester...sa Tuesday... ALL Linnaeans are invited... just text sybill for the details... last rush na 'to mga prends!!.. MAGDALA NA KAYO NG PAGKAIN A!!..HINDI YUNG PURO AKO NALANG NAGLULUTO!!!

**naligtas si Rosita!!.. THANK GOD!! E si Gian at Mau kaya mailigtas??.. SANA NAMAN NUH!! TINATAWAG KONG MULI ANG KAPANGYARIHAN NG LUPA!!.. hahahahaha.. :)

Araw gabi.. NALALASING SA TUWA...pero selos na selos!

2006-11-02T05:26:00.000-05:00

Araw gabi.. NALALASING SA TUWA...pero selos na selos!

sa araw na ito.. nais ko lamang mag post tungkol sa pagseselos.. hahahaha.. alam kong isa ito sa mga paksang marami sa inyo ang nakakaalam na(ang magdeny e panget!!..PANGET KA!!).. kung maaari lamang ay mawala na ito sa mundo.. ang halimaw na mayroong berdeng mata.. ngunit sadly.. parati siyang nandyan at nag-aabang na talunan tayo..kilitiin... patungan at i-nibble ng napaka-weird na paraan ang leeg at tenga..(teka teka.. mali.. hahahaha.. iba pala yun.. hahahaha..) naghihintay na kainin tayo ng buo na walang natitirang bakas... SHET..

so.. nais ko lamang ibahagi ang mga paborito kong linya ng pagseselos....

Sino yang katext mo?- bawat ring ng cellphone e tila tumunog ang fire alarm sa paranoia mo.. malay nga naman natin.. may kinakarir in secret ang iyong special someone!..hehe
Threat ba siya?- tanong yan kapag hindi mo na magawang pilitin ang isang tao na iwaksi yung umentra mula sa buhay niya.. kaya iaassure mo na IKAW parin.. ngunit mag-ingat!! maaaring sabihing HINDI..pero sa kalauna'y OO pala!!
Dun ka na- ang linyang nag-aabang ng lambing mula sa iyong kausap.. hinihintay mong sabihin niya.. "di..dito ako"..
Alam naman natin kung bakit ka pumunta dun- hahahaha..natawa ako bigla.. ang linyang to ay para sa mga taong dinadalaw ang 3rd party tapos papaalam sayo.. as if naman wala lang sayo diba..
So magkasama kayo nung buong time na yun?- yan ang masasabi mo kapag nalaman mong magkasama sila.... but wait for the excuse to follow... they're just doing some co-curricular activities... talaga lang a.. tawa nalang tayo.. hahahahahahahahahahaha...
RESPECT MY PERSONAL SPACE- PANIC na!!.. galit na yan!!.. yan kasi.. pinagselos mo pa alam mo na ngang SELOS na SELOS na!!..hehe..

don't assume that this is from personal experience a.. hahahahahahahaha.. I SWEAR na hindi... HINDI KO KAYO NILOLOKO.. hahahahahahahahahaha.. I PROMISE DI KO KAYO NILOLOKO.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!.. nababaliw na ako.. kasalanan to lahat ng mga bwisit kong friends!!..

thank you sa kasama ko kanina.. nakakatawa.. hehehehehehe.. nasa jeep kame may nakita kaming vendor ng kendi na kinukutuhan... may bibili pa kaya sa kanya??..hehehehehe..

at payong kaibigan lamang frends.. kahit depressed... e palaging tandaan na kung pumasok sa utak niyu na tumungga ng TEQUILA e dapat may chaser akei?.. lime o coke!.. kasi pag naka-abot na kayo ng 8th shot na walang chaser e parang sasabog tiyan niyu!!... I SWEAR I'LL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN..

2006-10-31T05:51:00.000-05:00

Araw-gabi... awoooooh!!..I'm free...

who knew that it would just take me 5 days to get over you?.. who knew.. IT'S SO FREAKEY!!!.. hahahahahaha.. tawa tayo.. (1,2,3 go!) hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. sabi nila ang pagtawa daw ng malakas ay nakatutulong sa pagbabawas ng masamang niloloob.. so pag natatae kayo pero tila constipated ang drama niyo.. pwede kayong tumawa ng sobrang lakas habang nakaupong parang reyna o hari sa toilet..tapos..kusa na lamang mahuhulog ang mga bomba sa hiroshima.. hahaha.. (guess lang naman..hindi ako ang authority sa defacation..hahaha)

so ang ibig sabihin nito.. tapos na ang aking hiatus!..ang pathetic naman.. kahapon ko lang inannounce tas ngayon tapos na.. well... na-satisfy na naman yung parameters ng aking hiatus e.. so I'M BACK!..

bisperas na ng Undas.. naglipana na ang mga maligno at ang mga multo sa mundong ibabaw.. nais ko sanang magdiwang ng isang Halloween Party ngunit naudlot ang pagpaplano sapagkat sinagasaan ako ng isyung sobrang kagilagilalas na nawalan ako ng pocus sa buhay!!.. kung nagkataong naiplano ito.. siguro magiging costume party yun.. kasi ang hilig ko sa costumes.. siguro.. naging reanimated medieval prince ako.. hahahaha.. in short.. ZOMBIE!! pero hindi yung kadiring ZOMBIE a.. sa lahat ng maligno.. yun ang pinaka hindi ko matiis!!.. natatakot ako siyempre sa lahat ng ZOMBIE movies na napanood ko..

kung sino man ang walang takot sa mga ZOMBIE e magtaas lamang ng kamay..

but truth be told.. pag nagkakakwentuhan na ng scary stories.. di ako apektado.. unlike kevin na parang hindi lalake..hahahahaha.. so baligtad.. bwahahahahahaha.. let's all laugh for the sake of shitting!!.. bwehehehehehe.. sorry.. that was disgusting..

and... my brain has run out of things to say.. indulge me.. this is only my first day of mental freedom from the clutches of insanity!!!

kay heneroso.. sobrang funny ng iyung podcast.. hahaha.. kahit walang main plot tawa parin ako ng tawa.. hahahahahahaha.. :)

edgar..opo.. I won't waste my last days sulking over such a pathetic issue..

sue..i agree..if getting over the issue doesn't work.. there's always the hate path..

karenmae..salamat.. :)

sa lahat ng kaibigan kong dumamay... maraming salamat ng sobra sobra!!!

I swear the old me will be back in the next post i make... so WATCH OUT!.. I'M GONNA BE A STAR!!.. hahahahahahaha.. ang panget ng dating!!..bwahahahahaha

The end of an era

2006-10-29T22:06:00.000-05:00

announcement lang to ng aking hiatus from blogging.. yaw ko kayong malunod sa torrents ng emo-ness na rumaragasa sa katawan ko ngayon.. so I'll be back when things are better for me... thanks to the people who gave their support during this turbulent time... kilala niyu na kung sino kayo....

if it were that easy to just brush it off aside... It'd have already been done.. so I guess it's not.. the question is... DO I WANT TO?...

When a lovely flame dies........

smoke gets in your eyes..

2006-10-26T21:19:00.000-05:00

Au revoir mon cheri.. Au revoir..

I got tagged.. 9 weird things bout me... here goes..

My taste in music is pretty much as slow as a turtle.. I like them when they're not popular anymore..
Sa mga natitipuhan ko.. hindi mapuputi kundi medyo dark(kayumanggi?..).. amf..
I call myself conservative kahit SOBRANG HINDI..
Kahit sobrang gustung-gusto(wow a..superlative to the max!!) ko ang isang bagay.. I sometimes say that I don't like it..
I'm assertive pag hindi matanda sa akin.. hehehe.. pero pag mga 20 years older than me.. nagiging mahiyain ako..
I sometimes doubt most of the good decisions I make..
tamad ako mag-aral.. pero sobrang Grade Conscious ko.. buti nalang at hasang-hasa ang sipsip powers ko..
It takes at least a year for me to get over past loves... OFF-LIMITS ang heart ko pag ganun..
It takes just one person to sway my decision opposite to that of many..

yeah..i know it's boring.. I'm bummed kasi.. but I gotta do this.. so the others tagged are:

kathy, icarus, aaRoN, jhed, utakGago, tricia, jigs, aaahhron, sybs-sue, edgar

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the past two days have been eventful....was out of the house for the Linnae.outing that took place sa bahay ni Candy(wed..after EK) at sa bahay nila Kim(thurs)...

Wednesday: the night ended with me lowering my guard and easily succumbing to what my mind wanted to hear as opposed to what I KNEW was the truth..(the repercussions were to be felt the following day)

Thursday: the night ended with me hyperventilating and crying myself to sleep and blurting out my feelings towards someone in an uncharactersitc "non-existence of my pride" moment.. happens only once in a green moon...(so sobrang rare..actually..first time)..but ended in unfavorable terms(yung kantang "Old Songs" alam niyu?..mejo related dun.. lecheng distansya).. I was a wreck.. I still am... a fool... a wretch.. GOD!!.. What's happening to me??....

kung mababasa niya to... ewan.. di ko alam kung paano ko iaaddress... but thank you for waking me from my kahibangan.... I just wish like heck that things were different.. that I didn't preempt my enrollment...

Sorry.. I have neither the energy nor the mood to put color to this post....I feel so morose..

"Goodbye to you.. Goodbye to everything I
thought I knew.. you were the one I loved.. the one thing that i tried to hold
on to.." -but unfortunately... twas slippery.. I fell off the cliff and into the abyss..
"I aint trippin'.. I'm just missing you.. You
know what I'm saying..you know what I mean.. Every now and then..when I'm all
alone I'd be wishing you would call me on the telephone.. Say you want me babe..
but you never do.. I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FOOL.. there's nothing I can do! I'm
such a FOOL FOR YOU!!!!!!!!.."... -sabi ng ibon nang siya'y nakipag-usap sa
isa pang ibon.. ang taray!..inglesero siya!.. yung isa e hinde..kaya baka walang
naintindihan...
"PROMISE ME.. YOU'LL WAIT FOR ME..COZ I'LL BE
SAVING ALL MY LOVE FOR YOU..." -but the distance just didn't work
out..daw..
"I'll dry my eyes.. after I had my one last
cry.. one last cry.. before I leave it all behind.. i gotta put you out of my
mind.. for the VERY LAST TIME..stop living a lie.." -and then.. i left before the
slumbering giant opened its eyes..

the road now forks.. "bestfriends"?(take note of the "").... or the dreaded..path-of-no-communication-forever?... It's a choice I wish I didn't have to make..

sa mga friends na dumamay sa akin kagabi.. sobrang salamat.. di ko alam kung anung nangyari sa akin kung ala kayo dun..

kay hunghang... era bueno mientras que duró para mí.. salamat sa lahat...

2006-10-23T05:37:00.000-05:00

Tayo nang mag-portey sa aming bahay!!

nagsimula ang araw na ito ng ginising ako ni mama kasi aalis na siya.. lumipat na ako ng higaan kasi mas malaki yung higaan ni mama na dati'y akin ngunit for some unknown reason e napunta kay mama..

biglang dumating sila Keb at Kim.. actually.. ninotify na nila ako na darating sila.. tapos.. kumain na kami.. para makainom na..hahahahahahaha.. naka-4 na shot kami ng Cuervo(tequila sa mga hindi nakakalam) bago dumating ang ibang mga "portey-people" sa eksena...KABITIN!!..mga 12 na ito ng tanghali..

nasira nanaman ang sofa namin.. as in bumigay na ang isang paa ng sofa!!.. puro kasi harot at kung anu-anong KABABALAGHAN ang nangyayari sa aming sofa!!!!..hahahahaha.. I'll leave it to your imagination!!

Biglang nag-ring cellphone ko......

#$%^: ZIZOU!! (opo..may mga piling taong eto ang tawag sa akin.. salamat!!..hehehe)

Ako: #$%^!! stah?

#$%$^: dalawin niu naman ako sa UST hospital.. naconfine ako e..(ekekekek..details)

Ako:try namin..

so aga kaming napasugos sa UST hospital.. nahirapan kaming hanapin ang Sto.Nino ward a.. ang hirap talaga..nang mahanap na namin to.. dun lang namin nalaman na gumawa nanaman ng kagagahan itong aming friend.. friend.. eto lang a.. wag naman ganun.. maraming nagmamahal sayo na madedevastate kung may mangyari sayo.. swear.. isa na ako dun!!

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may nakwento sa akin si keb na akala ko'y di ako maaapektuhan..ngunit medyo nakaka-asar.. at nasira nun ang umaga ko..bute nalang at masarap ang ulam...

2006-10-20T22:09:00.000-05:00

When Bad Meets Good Part1... PICTURAN NANAMAN ITO!!!!

(ang halimaw at ang singer)

(si sybill sue..at ako)

(sa bahay nila...sa videokehan)

(demented.... nageemote*what the fuck?!*)

(loon..sane)

(thanks to Sybill's cellphone for the pics.. unfortunatyely.. she wasn't able to send me the other hilarious ones..)

I've known her for 3 years.. considered as one of my bestfriends.. we both love fashion.. we both love books.. we both love RETAIL THERAPY.. we both love our AA.. we both love LINNAE.. we both love MASCI.. (we're starting to love UP).. we both love to blog.. we both love to criticize.. we both love to take a gazillion pictures!!!

2006-10-18T06:08:00.000-05:00

Hindi mapaniwalaan ng aking mga mata...

If we follow the clues na naitala sa "100 Years of Solitude" ni Gabriel Garcia Marquez e we will find a desolate and forsaken town in the heart of the Colombian jungle.. woooh!.. exciting ang adventure!!

application period for the expedition members is now open.. Just send your application form, 2x2 picture, full body shot, a 1000 word essay on the purpose of meaning and a 1000 peso testing fee.. you will be notified thru text if you are accepted or not.. late applications will not be accepted..

hahahaha!! :)

Sabi doon sa libro eh there used to be a town called Macondo in the heartland of Colombia.. yun daw ay itinayo ng Familya Buendia..sila kaya ang nagtayo ng Buendia street/district sa Makati?..hhmm.. hahahahaha.. DROWN IN CORN!!!!

All was well in the town of Macondo if it weren't for the rampant sex acts of the people and non-stop incest and inter-familial mating ng mga Buendia!.. My god!!.. it's the first book I've read that in almost every chapter there's a family member having sex with another family member.. pwedeng LOLA sa APO.. my golly wow!.. ang tibay ni Lola!!..pero lola aint that old yet.. and PINSAN to PINSAN din!.. my golly.. there was an instance when the son almost F*cked the mother!.. ang tanging consolation dun e the fact na hindi niya alam na nanay niya yun..

in the end.. the last of the Buendias had a pig's tail on his ass and the town got destroyed by a huge storm where NO ONE survived..all because they couldn't keep their cocks in their pants.... hehehehe..

QUESTION of the DAY:

*faced with the same dilemma.. would you..as a citizen of Macondo..where there is absolutely no trace of conservatism and everyone seems to want to do "it" every single minute.. choose the salvation of the town and it's residents?...or continue with the unending torrents of pleasuring your libido?..hehehe.. TOUGH QUESTION!.. I PASS!

2006-10-17T06:06:00.000-05:00

Umiiyak ang aking puso't nagdurusa...

Je t'aime, te amo, i love you, watashi wa anata aistomaso, ich liebe dich, iniibig kita, gua ay di... crap....Am I done with it?......

USAPING EMO-NESS!!..hehehe.. the sandwich of blogs.. paulit-ulit nagagawa.. pero wala paring kasawa-sawa..

Ang post na ito ay semi-dedicated kay Jhed... dude.. I think I know what you're going through.. Coz I was in that same place up until a few days ago... if I'm correct with my interpretation of your post...(I hope I am..but here's my take on it anyway) pero it's also my way of finally releasing what's been bottled up inside for almost a month...

I know the feeling when parang ang kaya mo lang gawin ay magmukmok sa kama dahil parang sinakluban ka ng langit at lupa tapos tatanungin mo si God.."Lord..bakit naman po ganito?.. Ano po bang ginawa ko para magkaganito ang mga bagay?"..

I don't know with you.. But if someone causes that much pain to your heart.. then I think that that someone ain't worth all the trouble.. I mean.. I've realized na kung totoo man yung kung anu mang naroroon(i hope you catch my drift) e hindi hahayaan nung taong yun na masaktan ka parin.. If somebody loves you as they say they do.. or if someone makes you feel important the way they say that you are to them... then sila mismo ang gagawa ng paraan para maayos ang mga bagay...unless of course..ikaw ang nag-cause ng misunderstanding o conflict.. in that case.. walang kwenta tong post ko.. hehehe..

**GENERAL QUESTION**
pag di kayo nagkakaintindihan...o di kaya'y pag nag-aaway kayo... ikaw lang ba ang nais makipag-ayos? para bang ala siyang care kung sobrang ala ka ng pride kasi ikaw na ang gumagawa ng lahat ng paraan para makapag-ayos kayo?... kasi kung ganoon.. then the ship has already sunk to the bottom of the ocean.. ala na yung pag-asa...pero if it's otherwise...then there may still be hope(i think)... haaaay...

halata bang sobrang emo ko din?..hehehe.. sa mga kaibigan ko tinatawanan ko nalang pero sobrang sakit parin.... MABUHAY MGA PINAGMUKHANGA-TANGA CLUB!..(akin lang yan.. hehehe)

and hehehehe.. I've also gone through with the "blade" episode.. I've swiped that piece of metal on my wrists 2 years ago like....10 times... 5 on each.. not shallow..but not deep..the point wasn't to end my life..but just to physically represent the pain that i felt at that time... Ya..i know it sucks big time..

but am I done with it?...I don't know.. I hope not...

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at eto rin..on a different note.. napag-isip-isipan ko na hindi naman sa bilang ng comments ang basehan kung maganda o makabuluhan ang isang blog... basta't naipararating nito ang mga mensaheng nais ipaabot ng manunulat... so.. kahit isa o dalawa o tatlo lang ang comments sa aking mga post.. ok lang sa akin.. salamat sa mga nagbabasa ng blog ko.. yun lang ang aking mahihiling.... mabuhay kayo!!

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from the desk of

Chino-zizou

2006-10-16T03:51:00.000-05:00

Nasasaktan ako O'Baby!

Hey hey hey!! ako'y muling nagbabalik matapos ang halos isang linggong pananahimik...

This past friday ay ang ika-43 araw ng pagkakatatag (in english e foundation day) ng aming High School..ang Manila Science High School.. nakatutuwang makita ang mga dati kong schoolmates na nagbabalik in droves sa aming high school alma mater!..

enter: MSHS March

Batis ng Diwa.. Ginto't dalisay.. Kadluan ng karunungan..

Sa agham ay tampok na tunay.. Pangalan niya'y mutya at mahal

Sikapin natin na pagyamanin

Aral niya'y ating sundin..

Sa bawat sulok ng bayan natin kanyang bandila ay dalhin!

at matapos yoon... kami'y nagvideoke ng aking mga friends sa Robinsons.. at nagutay ang aking lalamunan.. eto ang song line up na nakuha ko sa blog ni Sue..

Too Many Walls
Bituing Walang Ningning (kami ni Dees ang kumanta*Dorina vs Lavinia!)
2 become 1
Wannabe
Sana'y Wala nang Wakas
Dito Ba? (ako..c Dees at si Ethel..*nadagdag si RosaMia..hahaha)
It's All Coming Back to Me Now (anthem ko yan)
Let's Get Loud
You've Made Me Stronger
So Yesterday
Luha
Halik

ayan ang mga ILAN sa mga kinanta namin.. grabe ang sakit ng lalamunan namin pagkatapos nung AEGIS medley!!!..

at tinamaan ako bigla nung LUHA ng AEGIS.. ahehehe.. alam kong jologs pero sobrang passionate niya!..lalo na yung chorus.. nagiging abenyu tuloy siya para sa nakatagong emosyon.. (streesed parts are italicized)

Di na kita kailangan!

Umalis ka na sa aking harapan!

Damdamin ko sayo'y naglaho na

at ito ang iyong tandaan:

ako'y masyadong nasaktan!

pag-ibig at pagsuyo'y kahit na sa luha'y pagbabayaran mo!

relate ba?.. hehehe.. oo ata e.. ehehehe.. a basta.. tamaan ka sana ng kidlat.. you know who you are.. bitter?..no..angry?..yes..most definitely.. ahehehehe.. wooosh! :)

and oo nga pala.. nais kong bigyan ng credit si Sybill Sue Moser na siyang nagrekomenda sa akin ng Claiming of Sleeping Beauty na siyang yumurak sa aking innocense.. hehehe :)

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From the desk of

Chino-zizou

2006-10-11T21:33:00.000-05:00

One day you're in.. and the next you're out..

This is the PROJECT RUNWAY 2 EPISODE! [all together in falsetto-choir vocals!] "PROJECT RUNWAY!"

I've crossed paths with the thought of being a fashion designer not once..not twice.. but four times already.. and all of them at different intervals of my life.. nung ako'y 8 years old at medyo nafascinate ako sa mananahi ng aking uniform...

"ang cute naman niyang itim na machine" said a wee little boy to mamang mananahi in an alteration shop a long long time ago[in a galaxy far far away..bwahaha]..to the idiot who didn't get it.. opo..ako yung wee little boy.."

then again when I was 12 when I started to like fashion.. Twas a time of transition for me [those who know me well know what I'm talking about]..

then again when I was in 2nd year high school.. just entered my mind during one of my "Stream of Consciousness" sessions..

Then again during this vacation.. especially when Project Runway 1 was aired.. I dunno.. the surreality of it all kinda engulfed me.. parang ang saya magdesign ng damit.. daming naka-imbak sa utak kong mga designs.. both men's wear and women's wear..

kaso..

naalala ko..

I suck at drawing..all I can draw na maaus ay si Sunny Pig kasi ang dali niyang idraw.. eto.. sample..

perfection!!..ahahahaha.. o diba.. hahaha..

anyway.. i LURV hodie..[pinalitan ko na yung heidi kasi natawa ako when Jay McCaroll called her Hodie].. Hodie Klum is sooooo cute!!..parang care-free lang siya.. ahehehe... and she can yoddle!! I wish I could yoddle too!!.. Yodeleyii-owoo-Yodeleyii-owoo......[flashback to "the Sound of Music":once there was a boy a lonely boy said yodeyodeyodeyodelehihoo...ahehehe]

in season 1..i liked Wendy..even though everybody hates her.. I still like her.. ewan.. i have a soft spot for chubby old ladies... parang "Awww..why are you so mean to granny?"..

in season 2..chloe dao!.. also daniel vosovic.. ahehehe..

That's all[TDWP]

Auf Wiedersehen!

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from the desk of

Chino-zizou

2006-10-08T22:11:00.000-05:00

Akala ko inosente siya... bad pala..

Last Holy Week.. I was so bored off my wits that I went to Power Books to buy myself...well... a book(anu pa nga ba?..hallur..ahehehe).. I was browsing through the Classics section attempting with all my might to force myself to digest the droning and eye-popping-due to-boredome styles of Jane Austen(I hate her books.. I died reading through 1/4 of pride and prejudice so I just watched the movie)..

Unbeknownst to me.. I had crossed the proverbial line into the science-fiction/fantasy section.. so obviously.. I was unlucky in finding anything of worth sa classics section.. at aking nakita ang librong "nirekomenda" sa akin ng isa kong kaibigan.. ahehehe.. at eto ay ang...

The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty... it starts off where the fairy tale almost ended.. with the prince waking up Beauty from her eternal slumber following her dumb decision to prick her finger on a spindle.. but instead of the prince kissing her to wake her... the prince instead puts his(can I say the word?..oh who cares.. free speech) cock inside her and proceeds to have sex with her as she is sleeping.. finally.. when he comes.. Beauty awakens with a gasp(yung parang aangat pa yung torso tapos hihigop ng napakaraming hangin!)

the prince then takes her to his kingdom where he makes her his personal sex slave... Dito ko unang nabasa ang mga machinations ng mala-SnM na relasyon.. one of the main aspects ng libro ay ang pagpapasakit sa kanila sa pamamagitan ng punishments not just physically.. but emotionally and sexually as well..

e eto namang si Beauty..ng mamulat sa kagandahan ng sex..e tila naging adik na.. at pati sa ibang slaves e nakikipag-talik na ng parang rabbit!!..ahehehe.. tuloy.. nahuli siya ng prinsipe at pinalayas sa "kingdom of Carnal Desires"(still can't get over that name..ahehehe..so vogue!).. and take note..while on the caravan out of the kingdom..Beauty still has sex with a slave she just met on that caravan.. [end of book1]..wahehehehehehehe.. and to think I read this nung Holy Week... I asked God to forgive me naman.. ahehehehe.. :)

at this time..book2 naman ang binabasa ko(Beauty's Punishment..book3 ay Beauty's Release).. ahahahahahaha.. yung mga pinahiram ko pa ng book1 ang bumili nun!..ahehehe.. I WAS SHOCKED!..e mga conserbatib yung mga prends ko e!!.. mga maria clara!!..lalo na si Aza..ahahahahahahaha.. :) ..bwehehehe..

*****

From the desk of

Chino-Zizou

Future Glorious Imperato........or lawyer..ahehehehe

2006-10-06T05:12:00.000-05:00

(Saturday)so kagabi ay nagwakas na ang bituin... ok naman.. I actually cried.. ahehehehe.. anyhoo.. just didn't like the ending where all three of them sang sa carinderia.. was too cliche...

***

"You're nothing but a fake.. isang carbon-copy ng original..."

mamayang alas 9 na matatapos ang Bituing Walang Ningning.. hhhmmm.. eventhough I sometimes find Sarah Geronimo as an inconsistent Dorina... I still feel like it's the end of an era in Philippine TV..

for me.. Bituin has been one of the greatest teleseryes/novelas that have been aired by a Philippine production company... let me correct myself.. it's actually THE best for me since I can no longer recall any other show that really caught me and my family..well.. aside from Pangako Sa 'Yo.. ahehehe.. forgive my corniness...

as for the cast...here are tidbits of my conjectures.....

Dorina-could have been a little more aggressive.. for me Sarah was TOO KIND..

Lavinia- perfection! the epitome of an anti-hero.. yet I found the introduction of a human element to her evil quite disappointing.. Again.. she may become the repentant antagonist who makes peace with the heroine...BORING....next!

Rosa Mia- PLEASE... pathetic.. 'nuff said...

Mamang/Adora- AiAi's breakout role in a drama series.. excellent performance.. who knew she could shed sincere tears?.. honestly I was flabergasted!

Oman- Carlo Aquino was dreamy... dreamy dreamy dreamy.. my friends keep telling me he is the paragon of an ideal boyfriend minus the possesiveness...

Nico- non-entity for me.. the series didn't develop him that much unfortunately..

John Pratts- I already forgot his character's name..

Bencho- cute..but contrived...

will the finale deliver?.. we'll have to wait and see.. hopefully... ABSCBN won't chicken-out from an ORIGINAL ending..

(from my friend Axis..fan na fan siya ni Sarah.. ahehehe..See here Sarah pinching an arm..how adorable.. :))

***

from the desk of

Chino-Zizou

Future Glorious Imperato......... o kaya lawyer.. ahahahahahaha :)

2006-10-04T07:11:00.000-05:00

"Dirty..Filthy..Nasty"

teka teka.. hindi ako yan...(talaga?)..hahahaha.. CONSERVATIVE ako e..hahahahahahahaha..

so after a week(almost) ng pamamahinga.. ako'y nagbabalik mga fans!!.. isang napakalaking pasasalamat sa mga nagkumento sa aking mga previous posts.. i truly appreciate them..

ako..si Raymond Justin Carl General Ampil (ya ya.. i know.. nakaririndi ang aking whole name).. noong nakaraang linggo.. ay halos mamatay na sa kaiiyak dahil hindi kinaya ng aking pagkatao ang pagkawala ng signal..linya ng telepono at ng kuryente.. biruin niyo naman.. trapped na nga ako sa bahay with those "old" people..(my mom and my tita..) for 5 days ay wala pang senyales ng buhay sa makinarya ng maynila?.. naiyak talaga ako nun.. akala ko'y mamamatay na ako sa sooobrang pagkatunaw ng aking utak..

nais kong pasalamatan ang mga sumusunod na tao..

Justin Timberlake for singing me to a frenzy with Rock Ur Body
Christina Aguilera for reminding me of my "DIRTY" ways..
Missy Elliot for working it..
Beyonce for being so Crazy in Love
Lionel ritchie and Diana Ross for endless love..hehe..

so bago salatain ni Milenyo ang kamaynilaan.. ako'y nagtungo sa UPd upang panuorin ang recital ni Miraquel sa PE nila..at sa aking false hope na makipag-ayos na with someone.. and ang nagawa ko lang ay yung una.. meron akong pics siyempre..

(ien..moi and aza)

(pagpasensiyahan ang quality ng aking kuha..di pa ako nun adept sa aking cam)

(UP PEP SQUAD does a repeat of their routine..kaasar kasi dito di na sila natumba!! bakit ba kasi sila natumba nung cheerdance??!..grr!)

(ang kahalayan ng Filipiniana Dance Troupe..2 lalake yan..ahehehe.. kissing scene #1.. I'm conservative!)

(kissing scene #2...agen.. I'm conservative..who am I kidding?)..hahaha

(after the recital.. aza and i played sa ulan..)

at oo nga pala..ako'y super sad at natalo ang AdMU sa UAAP men's basketball!!.. huhuhuhu....ahehehe!! at ang galing talaga ng UP STREET.. sobra!!!!! lalo na yung nasa gitna nung una na naka-yellow na may black accent sa shirt!!.. ssssssssssssstt... hot!..bwahehehehehe.. :)

2006-09-24T23:27:00.000-05:00

PORTEY!!...

kumusta naman ako?.. halos 2 araw ng (ok ok ok.. wait lang.. tama ba ang aking pag-gamit ng "NG"? o dapat ba "NANG"?..yan ang isa sa mga hindi ko naintindihan nung HighSchool Fil) walang tulog sapagkat 2 araw na kaming halos puro gala ng aking mga pinsang OLD.. relatively old lang naman.. mga at most 9 years ahead of me..

dumating ang aking 2 pinsan mula sa probinsya sapagkat pupunta si Ate Jill sa Macau.. sinamahan siya ni Kuya Cyd..wow naman.. talagang doting brother ang dating!.. wehek!.. (ang weird naman.. kahit gusto ko nang tanggalin ang KUYA at ATE sa aking bokabularyo e hindi ko ito magawa...shet naman!..respectful!!)...

Eto namang si Ate Jill e nais mag-gala.. kaya siyempre sama ako noh.. para na akong preso sa bahay kaya ako'y sumama nun.. dumating si Ate Lajoy na 5 taon ko nang hindi nakita..

pumunta muna kaming Figaro sa may Baywalk at doo'y nakipag-meet sa pinsan nilang si Pangga.. na ang buong ngalang ay Anne something..i forgot agad..hahahaha.. sa side nila ng family.. but mabait din naman.. nakasundo ko.. :) ..by the way.. ako nalang ang teen edyer dun!.. hahaha.. lahat sila'y nasa-tees na.. 30..40..60.. hahahaha.. joke..20+ palang..

kumusta naman nuh!!..usapan tungkol sa kanilang mga buhay-kuwarto!..hahahaha!!.. nagkaroon tuloy ng bahid ang aking inosenteng utak... hahahahaha... so if there's one thing na paghahandaan ko na.. it's that when cousins don't see each other for a time.. prepare to divulge your DEEP DARK BEDROOM SECRETS..hahahahahahaha.. :)

tapos nun.. diretso kaming malate district para mag-party.. hahahaha.. sayaw sayaw dito.. inum-inum dito.. ang inakala naming barrel ng beer ay naging pitchel ng beer na lamang bigla.. hahahahaha.. tinawanan nalang namin.. hohoho.. :) .. si Ate Candy..si Ate Jill.. si Ate Laj at si Ate Pang lang at ako ang nagsasasayaw.. may brief moment na sumayaw din ang asawa ni ate pang pero the other boys were like glued to their seats.. ay ay ay.. sa maynila.. bawal ang may hiya.. hahahaha.. :).. tama ba?..

natapos na kami ng mga 4:00.. hinatid kami ng boyfriend ni ate laj sa bahay.. hilong-hilo na ako nun pero hindi ako lasing.. ang bf ni ate laj...may itsura.. tas halatang mayaman!!.. haha.. :) NICE CATCH!.. bwehehehe.. :) ...

5 na ako nakatulog.. tapos gumising ako ng 1 para magsimba.. O! yan ang matatawag mung commitment!.. pagdating ko sa Quiapo.. kahit nananakit pa ang aking katawan.. e pumasok ako sa simbahan..handang-handa!.. pero yun pala..alang simba pag 1 o'clock.. kaya after a time sa simbahan.. uwi na ako.. tas gala uli kaming market2 kahapon!..

gala-gala-gala-gala.. sarap gumala... hahahaha.. and to think I'm not even "barely legal" yet.. hahahaha...

CONCLUSION: for all the heartache and misery in me.. the best remedy is to get shit-face-drunk and party til the wee-morning-hours.. one and a half out of 2 aint bad.. almost there.....

2006-09-22T21:20:00.000-05:00

I'm back!!

ako'y nagbabalik mula sa aking isang linggong pamamahinga mula sa blogging!!..

sa wakas ay aprubado na ang aming aplikasyon para sa 2 bisang pang-imigrante patungong Estados Unidos.. Ngunit huwag mangamba mga minamahal kong fans..(bwahahaha!) ako'y magbabalik sa buwan ng Pebrero o Marso sapagkat aking ipagpapatuloy ang aking pag-aaral sa kolehiyo dito sa Pilipinas.. (MABUHAY ANG UP!)

so aking ikekwento ang aking mga karanasan ngayong nakaraang linggo....

"nanay..tatay..gusto kong tinapay..ate kuya gusto kong kape.. lahat ng gusto ko ay susndin niyo..ang magkamali ay pipikutin ko"- sinabi yan ng isang batang tila 6 taong gulang pa lamang.. nakaupo sila sa aking likuran sa interview area sa embahada.. wow a.. kebata-bata mo palang ay marunong ka nang mamikot.. hahahahahahaha!! :) ..kumusta naman kaya ang sinapupunan mu??..hahahahaha

"pabili nga ng 2 TRAS..yung condom".. hahahahahaha!.. yan ang sabi nung ale sa drug store ng ako'y bumili ng neozep..hahaha yung ale mukang 50 years old na.. ang tindi naman ng asawa mu.. 50 na e virile parin ang kanyang semilya kaya natatakot kang mabuntis!! SENSWAL!.. hahahahahaha..

"cge. kaw bahala"-yan ang abridged version ng text na medyo ginalit ako.. medyo lang.. kasi ako'y naniniwala na sa mga pag-uusap na gatindi ng kaseryosohan.. dapat OFF-LIMITS ang katagang yan..o kaya'y kung mamarapatin ng tadhana.. tamaan ng kidlat lahat ng taong magsasabi niyan sa gitna ng isang passionate argument.. kasi naman noh.. parang "sige..kaw bahala..la ako pake.." ang dating e.. db..

lo and behold mga kaibigan.. si emman ay nawalan na ng pimples!(para namang kilala niyu siya..hahahaha) at sa tingin ko..kinulam niya ako para malipat sa akin ang kanyang mga tagihawat.. yak talaga!!.. buti nalang at pawala na ang mga ito.. hahaha.. :)

Bumili kaming WOW! magic sing nung miyerkules.. at kagabi lang namin ito na-try dahil kinulit kami ng aking mga pinsan na ayaw din naman kumanta!..hehehe.. ang aking kinanta ay ENDLESS LOVE..at habang kinakanta ko to.. lalo lang akong nabwisit..hahaha..

sobrang gulo ng aking utak ngayon.. pareho nanaman ng dahilan sa aking mga previous "bugso ng damdamin" posts.. hahahaha.. ang pathetic.. pero ewan ko kung bakit di maalis sa aking utak.. yuck naman..

(but I gotta laugh at this.. came across Leader Ryan's pic sa blog ni kathy.. UST nursing yan.. pagong na may tiger ears.. shet a.. hybrid!)

2006-09-14T21:56:00.000-05:00

Weh? Talaga? Di nga.. bwehehe

To my German visitors.. Guten Tag! Du schreibst eine Anmerkung!

To my Spanish visitors.. Buenos Dias! Que tal? Escribeis un comentario por favor! "tag" tambien!

To my French visitors.. Bonjour! Vous ecrivez un commentaire sil vous plait!

At siyempre..to my kababayans.. ang mga Pinoy.. MABUHAY! Marapat lamang na mag-iwan kayo ng kumento sa aking mga poste (post) at kung maaari ay mag-tag din kayo.. maraming salamat at humayo kayu! mwah mwah mwah!!

**interjection!

salamat kay Rob aka Bim para sa pagtawag sa aking atensyon sa aking obersyt na ito.. :)

well.. now that that's over and done with.. I'd just like to say a few words...well.. a lot actually...

eventhough I've deferred my entry to school.. that doesn't mean that my social life is experiencing complete privation.. Let's just say it's in a QUASI-DORMANT state right now.. it's not super alive and wiggling with its bumble-bee ass right now.. but it's not completely dead and lifeless as well..

**interjection!!**

I'm so happy that I've been able to incorporate QUASI and PSEUDO into my mainstream vocabulary.. hehehe.. babaw.. sorry.. :)

ok..I'm back..

If you look at it.. I still have my friends who..thank GOD.. do not forget me..(does that sound pathetic?..hahahaha) .. one could say that although we're now separated by cities..(QC and Manila; ako'y currently in manila pero QC narin ako come entrance time).. e communication can never be severed.. para ba itong rope na hindi mo masusunog!..

we still go out
we're still the ones whom people at the trains or the jeepney look at coz we're the noisy ones that couldn't care less..hehe
we still drink..hehe.. or at least some of us do..
we never miss a social gathering!..
we still like to PORTEY(the maarte way of saying party)..hahahahaha
and most of all.. we like drinking beer from tumblers.. hahahahahahaha..with straws!

**interjection again!

just remembered yesterday when the nurse was asking for my allergies.. I said.."sa Rhum po".. hahahahahahahaha..pero dun lang.. sa ibang alcoholic bevs naman e hindi.. hehe..anu kaya ang nasa rhum na ala sa iba?.. hmmm.. imbestigahan!

yun nga lang.. majority of them do not like going out at night.. mga protected babies kasi.. aaaww.. shame.. bwehehehehe..

but hei.. there's always time once we turn 18..which is about 6 months for me!.. TUMBLERS UP!

2006-09-12T21:16:00.000-05:00

Opo opo.. tapos na yang episode about the cheerdance.. Weeeeh!!..

Moving on..

kanina ng ako'y magising.. puno nanaman ang aking inbox ng mga messages ng aking friends.. mga 20 messages yun.. hehehe.. nais kong i-share ang kanilang text-conference...

(i'm paraphrasing kasi ang haba!)

FRIEND1: yung field trip namin e sa mt. banahaw!

FRIEND2: o? wow naman!!.. uwian mo ako ng igorot ha!

FRIEND1: hahahahaha.. Dahil sobrang laki ng igorot yung bahag nalang niya ang iuuwi ko sayo..

FRIEND3: good morning everyone!!.. teka teka.. kelan nagkaroon ng IGOROT sa mt.banahaw?

FRIEND2: anu kaba? di ba mga igorot ang gumawa ng banawe rice terraces?

AKO:(wala akong load).. bwahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..hahayaan ko nalang silang magkagulo over that.. lam naman nating issue of gargantuan proportions yan.. hahaha..

ang ibang nasa aking inbox na hindi quotes:

ANALYN: ,hahay whooa!!, dumudugo na ung braincelz q sa stat statistics na 2, wachu!!, God bless me!!, alabshue annie!!, kaya mu yan!, aja aja aja!!

KIM: waaaahahahaha,, sa sobrang wlangkakwentahan ng aking supposed 2sday habard nyt,, aku'y ng.upload ng qng anu2 skng multiply.. waaahh,, antagal pla nun!

Etzz,, my spexal partcpaxon k dun!,,wahaha..

(ekekek..ang haba pa)(visit ki'm multiply sight at http://kimmydiwa.multiply.com)

KIM: d p kuh m2log pero gud3nyt na s mga p2log nah.. lgng tandaang buhay p kuh d2 ah... qng kelangan nyu ng adbays na may kinalaman sa lab2..wag aku.. lapitan c emi(pseudonym kong pauso nila..kaurat!! raymond->emond->emi..(yuck!!))

EDGAR:Ei, raymond, do u know wat d no. of candice is? and btw, thnx a lot 4 d ticket.

(i asked him kung sineseryoso na niya yung kanyang pagiingles..syempre..in english!)

EDGAR: not really. but i wont lose anything if i do. thnx a lot pal. ur so great cheerio! =)

(wow a.. may pa-cheerio-cheerio kapang nalalaman..haha)

REI: "bnasa namin ang utak mo ngunit wala man lang kahit isang bahid ng pangalan ni luna"

"binasa nio ang utak ko?! binasa niu ang utak ko pero ang puso ko hindi!!"

AKO: tangina..hahahaha

***

hahaha.. o ayan.. hehe.. magloload na uli ako mamaya para naman makadaldalan ko na sila.. at para sa mt.banahaw isyu.. hahahaha.. goodluck talaga..

2006-09-10T21:28:00.000-05:00

"Go Ustehhhh.. Go Ustehhh.. Go Ustehhh.. Go Go Go Go!"

"Let's go tamaraws.. Let's Go!"

"Pula! at luntian! lumalaban! UP sugod! huh!!"

After all the hooplah and hollabaloo yesterday.. the UST Salinggawi Dance Troupe took home the championship... for the 5th time..

3rd kami.. but the funny thing is..

NAGKAROON KAMI NG PERANG PAMBILI NG BAGONG COSTUME!!.. pero not enough money para magka-mascot.. sabi ko nga kay Kev e maghubad nalang siya tas xa si Oble.. hahahahahaha.. :))

Dumating kami sa Araneta ng mga 10:30 kasi sabi sa amin ni Mira e pag na-late daw kami.. hindi niya kami bibigyan ng ticket.. Siya yung may hawak ng ticket kasi siya muna umabono sa amin.. yung tickets e nabili sa Ateneo.. hehe..

Hinintay pa namin yung iba kasi kumain pa sila kasi nga nagkasalisihan sa lugar na kikitaan.. kaya ayun.. haha.. So the people that were with me were: Kevin.. Kim.. Sue.. Ethel.. Erma.. Krystel.. Mira.. Ien.. and Candy.. mas marami pa dapat kaso nga lang hindi sila nakapunta because of stuff..

So ayun.. grabe ang atmosphere sa loob.. damang dama mo ang COMPETETIVE air among the universities.. at siyempre.. buhay na buhay ang ere ng tunggalian sa pagitan ng UP at UST.. ang 2 power houses sa Cheering..

(there's a time for peace...

...and a time for war)

(yung unang pic ang gathering ng UST at UP mascians kila kim)

sa simula pa lang e talagang parang giyera na ang feeling sa luob ng "The Big Dome"...

Magkukumento lamang ako..

ako'y medyo nanghinayang at hindi nanalo ang unibersidad ng pilipinas..

naniniwala pa naman akong ang aming cheers ang pinaka-unique at pinaka-makabago.. ang aming mga yells kahapon ay sobrang bago.. na tinuro lang sa amin ito (o ang pagkakasunud-sunod nito) mga 10 minuto bago magsimula ang kompetisyon..hahahaha.. yan ang aming pagkakamali.. hindi namaster ang bagong mga cheer sa PE classes ng iba kaya't hindi ganoon kalakas ang audience participation unless i-count mo ang walang humpay na tilian ng halos 1/4 ng buong araneta na aming inoccupy..

sa aking palagay.. kung amin lamang ginamit muli ang aming mga lumang cheers.. e di mas matindi ang aming contention for first place.. at siyempre.. kung hindi nalaglag ang isa sa aming mga liftings.. ngunit ok lamang yun.. may next year pa naman..

ngunit sabi nila Paolo Ramos at Katherine Ursua (aking mga kakilala sa USTe.. bakit ba yun tawag nila sa UST?..) e hindi na raw makasasali ang Salinggawi next year sapagkat 5 time champs na daw sila at sila pa ang host next year......

and so?...

for me that rule is so inappropriate.. a cheering competition is supposed to showcase the best of the best from all the universities na kasali sa UAAP.. now.. the UST people claim that their's is the best.. so why not prove it again?.. rule shmule.. the UAAP leadership should defeat that ruling and let the UST people compete next year.. coz if they don't..

the winners of the competition would always have a question of ascendancy kung sila ang karapat-dapat talagang manalo.. if UST wins again next year.. then that just goes to show na they're really good.. so I don't get the sense of the 5year rule.. para ba tong bar exam?.. (yuck ang corny ng aking comparison..).. kaya sana kasali sila next year.. so that WHEN we beat them (power of positive thinking. UP pep sets the trend!!).. we know it's because we're the best..hehe

3 time champs na ata kami..

eto pa!.. sobrang natuwa ako sa AdMU-UP alliance kahapon.. dumaloy ang Quezon City blood sa amin at sinuportahan namin ang isa't isa.. sapagkat medyo mahina ang kanilang yells kasi medyo konti ang tao sa AdMU side..(may joke nga na natraffic daw yung limo nila kaya ala sila dun..hehe).. e sumigaw rin ang UP side ng "GO ATENEO! ONE BIG FIGHT!..

tapos at the end of the competition.. sila naman ang sumigaw ng U! Nibersidad! ng Pilipinas!! .. nakaka-touch.. hehe.. GO AdMU!!.. bakit kasi di niyo ko binigyan ng scholarship e.. kung alam ko lang na hindi na ako makokonsider sa ibang % kapag 100% ang aking inapply e di sana 50% nalang hiningi ko!!.. ggrr.. pero proud parin ako maging UP.. hehehe.. I think that's what's planned for me!!..

GO BLUE BABBLE BATALLION!! Ang cute ng name!! in all fairness to them.. yung aking pre-conceived notion na AdMU cheering is like "I'm pretty and I'm perfect" e di totoo a..

sa FEU naman.. ang aking comment.. magaling.. feel ko nga sila pinaka-organized e.. kaso (no offense a).. nagmuka silang mangga sa costume!.. pero GO parin!!.. Go FEU mangoes! este.. FEU tamaraws!

next year...and the seasons after that.. kami na ULIT ang champ!!

"GITING! AT TAPANG! IPAGDIWANG! UP SUGOD! HUH!!"

2006-09-08T21:35:00.000-05:00

panuorin niyu tong 2 videos na to ng magkasunod

**my favorite opera scene.. ang galing nung batang lalake!! pang-coloratura soprano yang kinakanta niya!!

anyway...

Ang aga kong gumising today!.. from my usual 11 o'clock gising e nagising ako ng mga 7:00 ng dahil sa aking alarm... pinapunta kasi akong MaSci ng aking Electricity teacher noong High School para tumulong sa aming mga successors sa Parliamentary Procedures contest..

Naalala ko tuloy bigla yung parliamentary team last year.. nakaabot kaming regional.. nag-top kami sa division.. tapos nag-second kami sa regional.. sayang.. kung natapos lang namin yung aming routine ng walang bastusang ginamit ang ibang regional contestants habang nag-pepresent kami.. kami dapat ang naka-punta sa General Santos City at sana.. nanalo ang NCR noh!.. hehehe.. ang assuming..

"We are not bound by your time piece".. (edgar naaalala mo ba to?).. yan yung sinabi nung judge kay Edgar nung nagreklamo kaming we still had time to finish our routine..

ang parliamentary team last year was composed of junior and senior students under the chairmanship of Randolph Francia.. nung una medyo di ako bilib kay Randolph.. di ko kasi siya ka-batch.. nanggaling siya sa previous batch.. pinadala lang siya sa states bilang isang exchange student sa esteyts.. tapos bumalik siya para grumaduate.. kaya ayun.. naging kabatch namin.. pero ang galing niya a.. hehehe.. bilib nako dun ngayon!.. siya ang nagspearhead ng aming pagkapanalo sa iba't ibang contests..

sad to say.. hindi pala ngayon yung practice kaya nasayang ang aking pag-gising ng sobrang aga!!..

2006-09-07T21:39:00.000-05:00

UAAP cheering na sa Sunday.. Got the tickets.. Yun nga lang.. baka sa seats kami ng AdMU mapunta dahil dun namin binili yung tickets.. hehehe.. Naubusan kasi kami sa UP.. so ayun.. I asked my friend from AdMU to buy 12 upperbox tickets.. mas maganda sana kung lower box pero asa naman sa aking mga kasama.. hindi nun kaya kasi ang mahal na nun.. 200 pesos.. hehehehe.. but I would've been ok with that price.. malapit na kasi yun.. kaya masaya..

thank you #1 fan ng star!

sino si star at sino ang kanyang number 1 fan??.. hahahaha..

***

si star po ay ako.. nagsimula yan lahat nung christmas party nung 4th year high school sa masci.. nagkaroon ng di pagkakaunawaan ang Einstein(section ko) at Townes(section ni Joie..siya si #1 fan) ukol sa mga boys ng Einstein na nuo'y tila mga call-boy na sa dami ng nagnanasa sa kanila.. mga "anak" ko sila (mukha atang tunog bugaw ang dating!).. tas ayun.. nabansagang star na ang Einstein.. hahaha.. e dahil president ako nun.. ako ang naging punong star..(sarcastic yun!.. mga feeling-star daw kami..in short.. mga STARIRAY!)..hahahahahaha!!..

nang humupay na ang asaran at bangayan.. hindi na nawala ang pagtawag sa aking star.. naging Ginoong Star na nga with matching hand movements pa yun!.. Yung inaangat mu yung iyong palm na mala-Hitler style tapos parang may tutusukin ka sa taas.. hahahaha.. ang phony..

Si joie ang bumili ng tickets namin sa AdMU.. thank you joie talaga!!.. You're the best!!.. bonding tayo pag nagawi uli ako diyan sa katipunan!!...

2006-09-06T21:27:00.000-05:00

Do you ever get those days wherein you are so confused about something.. and you try to quench that confusion just to end up more confused than before?... I have... a lot of times..

Like for example.. during 4th year Advanced Chem classes... I would ask something about something and when I get answered I'd be more dazed than I was to begin with.. (ok..I know.. corny example.. but indulge me as I am yet to buid up my story..)

*** (bugso ng damdamin episode 2)***(if you do not like to read senti stuff get the fuck out coz this a big one)***(WORD VOMIT COMING UP!)

When someone tells you one thing and then after a little while..(let's say one week) the person backtracks a little bit.. would that totally invalidate the first statement?.. I mean.. sasabihin niyang "there's nothing to worry about" and then after a few days e "ewan..baka"...

Am I being played for a fool? One time it's like this and then the next it's a complete 180? Gosh.. eto ba ang ibig sabihin ng "I'll be a fool for you"?

Everything seemed so clear until I was about to sleep last night and I suddenly got to thinking.. "wait a minute.. I thought there was nothing to worry about?.."

When can one ask: "Anu ba talaga ako sa buhay mo?"...am I simple just someone na naiisip 2nd? I think I said I don't like sloppy seconds.. and am I just being led on?... kaya minsan ayaw ko na ng jokes e.. they're too risky...

speaking of risks... when can you say that it's worth risking it?... I thought I had an idea but it was poo-pooed...just a piece of shit..

do comment... I think I need whatever you guys have to say... and be blunt..

¡Parais la prensa!...anung nangyari??!

2006-09-03T22:04:00.000-05:00

After a few days of silence.. I'm back!!

But before I continue with this post.. I'd have to say a little prayer first...

Dear Lord,

Thank you for allowing the UP fighting maroons to end their season in the right way...

I know that this season was a bit dismal and very lackluster for the StateU players..

But bless them anyway for no one can deny their hard work...

and bless the cheerleaders that will compete this coming Sunday at the Araneta..

Make them the best they could be and if it bu Your will.. make them win(yung mga taga UP po!)

amen

ayan.. nagpasalamat lang ako kasi nanalo ang fighting maroons kahapon over the red warriors.. I felt so proud of them.. the red warriors were in close contention with the blue eagles for the first place position yet the maroons, who occupied the cellars of the league, beat them with by a 6 point margin.. and take note.. hindi nawala ang lead all throughout the game!.. lumiit ito from 18 to 12 to 9 to 3 to 2 then up to 4 then to 6!

nung naglalaro sila ay tila ba isa akong taong baliw kasi talon ako ng talon regardless of the fact na natutulog yung aking step-father sa kama at ako ri'y nagchicheer!!.. Salamat kay Nestor David..kay Ira Buyco at kay Galen Cacha for one heck of a season!.. Au revoir capitaine david!.. Adios el luchar marrón!

pero ang hindi ko maintindihan e kung bakit hindi nakapasok si Gian at si Ramirr sa Philippine Idol top 12 agad e sila naman ang pinakamagagaling?!.. ako'y disappointed kasi mga 10 votes din ako sa aking cellphone na naka-unlimited!(see my dedication?!).. at 40 pesos sa cell ni mama(panakaw na mga boto..hahaha).. gggrrr...

hahaha..basta hinding hindi ko susuportahan ang pinoy dream academy!!..

2006-08-31T05:54:00.000-05:00

I'm back!!.. and I've returned with a matching new template to showcase my current mood.. hahahaha.. How many times have I changed my template??..hhmm.. I can no longer remember..

I had one hell of a roller-coaster week.. I don't know how I'm going to define it.. but it was really emotional and dramatic at points and happy and celebratory at parts...

The parties I attended were really fun!!.. Siyempre puro picture-taking and singing and eating..

I also visited UPd kahapon.. I HAD to resolve some things.. and I was supposed to be interviewd by Mira's friends on a quasi-sensitive issue..(I'll divulge on a later post)..

At first...my main goal seemed to be quite far from reach.. ang goal na iyon ay ayusin ang isang gusot sa pagitan namin ng aking BF.. o o o.. bestfriend yun!..bwehehehe.. at nung una ay medyo hindi ko pa siya pinapansin sapagkat ninais kong siya ang unang lumapit para magsabi ng SORRY sa akin... siya naman kasi may kasalanan.. anu ako?..martyr?.. hehehehe.. e hindi niya yun ginawa.. tinawag lang niya ako.. "raymond"..he said.. and I replied with a shrug..

siyempre naman ako'y nasadnang ginawa ko yun.. but I had to stand up for my pride which was badly bruised the weekend before... the hours passed.. I was interviewd by Mira's friends.. (TAKE NOTE!! ang suot ko dun ay long sleeves na polo sapagkat nangailangang maging formal ang aking katauhan!) but hindi pa rin kami nakakapag-usap.. until late in the afternoon and my companions were slowly vanishing to go home..

nagkita kami sa sunken garden.. at anu ang ginawa namin dun??.. nagaway.. haha.. oo mga mababasa.. sa harap ng mga taong nag-jojogging.. naghahalikan.. nagpipiknik at nagfifrisbee ay kami'y nagsasagutan.. ang haba pa nun.. dumating pa yung isa naming friend at medyo na-halt muna ang sagutan effect..

natuloy na lamang ito nang kami'y papunta na sa unit niya na aking future unit... nais ko na talagang mag-walk out at ayaw ko na siyang kausapin kasi nagmuka akong tanga.. dada ako ng dada hindi naman siya sumasagot!!.. doon sa unit niya ay lumabas nalang ako at doon nag-munimuni sa bintana... approach naman siya.. edi nag-usap na kami...medyo may pa-iyak effect pa kami.. hehehehe.. buti nalang na-resolve na nung gabing yun..which was kagabi.. hehehehe..

tapos eto pa.. usapan namin ni Candice magkikita kami 8:45Pm.. dumating ako 9:15Pm.. sorry talaga Candice!!.. naka-uwi kami 10 na.. hahaha.. TAPOS.. ako'y na-hook sa Endless Love ni Lionel Ritchie at Dianna Ross....pati narin sa Tequila kung saan ako'y nalasing ng onti lang naman.. hehehehehe

madami dami pa kaso masyado nang mahaba.. sa susunod na lamang ang iba!!.. comment kayo a!!

2006-08-24T22:14:00.000-05:00

Hiatus from blogging for the weekend.. do comment guys.. I appreciate it so much!!..Happy birthday Candice!! Magka-boyfriend kana!! bwehehehe..alam niyo ba pinakikinggan ko ngayon??>>>edi MULI ni Rodel Naval!! bwahahaha!!

Bakit di pagbigyan muli ang ating pagmamahalan?..

kung mawawala ay di bat sayang naman?

lumipas natin tila ba kailan lang.. bwahahaha..

OPM mode eh.. bwehehehehe.. this is my 103rd post and I completely forgot to make ze 100th post(quoting jobel) special.. wooosh!..go chino..

SHIT HAPPENS(to me)

2006-08-23T21:35:00.000-05:00

hhmm... It's Kim's birthday today.. so I'd like to give a shout-out to her.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM! IN BEHALF OF YOUR 'AA' AND LINNAE1 FAMILY.. sana matupad na ang iyong mga pangako next year... I'll quote your oath..

Kaming mga SINGOLS.. ang Super Intelligent and Gorgeous Over-all Ladies of Science (bwahahahahahahahahahahaha.. what a laugh.. nabuo yan nung tumatakbo kami for the student council.. si candice..si aza at si kim ang mga campaign manager!) ay sumusumpang magsasabi ng secrets at hindi magkakaboyfriend hanggang 18..

(clearly hindi ako kasali diyan ha.. hehehehe.. kinoquote ko lang sila..)

and tomorrow is Candice's birthday!.. I'd like to greet my sister-sisteran a very happy 17th birthday!.. her oath is slightly modified.. she changed 18 to 22.. hahahaha.. parents' mandate! CANDICE MY DEAR!! HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!..IN BEHALF OF YOUR LINNAE2 FAMILY.. hahahahahaha.. :) peace tayo sis.dees...

It's really a sad day for me when friends no longer make it a point to say hello or to greet or stuff like that.. I know they have their own lives now and that distance has put somewhat of a strain on our relationships.. but surely one cannot be helped if he feels bad about it.. I mean.. I'm not a rock that is indifferent to such machinations.. hindi naman ako manhid noh.. Honestly, I'm one of the most sensitive people you're ever going to meet..(I'm working on keeping my sensitivity in control since it's not so popular with my friends..hehehehe)..

hhaaayy.. just bums me out... especially when someone so close to you... or someone you just recently met but feel so comfortable talking to.. suddenly vanish from your radar..or vice versa.. what a cruel world...

well.. at least I know who I can count on.. Go conference people!.. hahaha.. everyday..my fingers get a beating from non-stop sending to my distribution list.. it's like instant messaging my friends; it's just delayed.. there's just a group of people that I send my messages to..text niu ko! 09275992081 - pakilala kau a.. hehehehe :P

and yet..it's so hard not to act all hurt and depressed when you see those people.. haaay.. screw this..

ZzZ...I'm a bit sleepy stil..ZzZ

2006-08-22T22:46:00.000-05:00

hehehe.. dahil may mga nagsabi saking ang hirap daw mag-navigate dun sa recent kong blog template.. I reverted back to this one.. it's not that unique.. but it's still cute.. the only problem i have with it is that it doesn't fit my "MOON" motiff.. as some of you whom I text may know.. nahihilig na akong magsend nung linyang.."the only thing to do is jump over the moon"..hehehehe.. I dunno.. I just like that line.. it's so... inspiring of numbness.. hehehe.. at oo nga pala.. Congratulations sa 1-4 ng UST College of Nursing.. hehehehe.. 2nd place!.. and to think na kahapon lang ginawa ang costume niyo at wala kayong props at electronic devices na ginamit!.. that only means na nadala ng boses ang buong performance!..behehehe.. at best in choreography pa kayo!.. gogogo!!..Congrats din kila Ruvie ng 1-7.. at sa lahat ng MaScians na nagparticipate sa sabayang pagbigkas na yan.. alam kong kayo ang nagbigay buhay diyan!.. weeeh!..hehehehehe..

Randomize(ramble);

ako'y Religion Awardee for 6 straight years.. BEST IN CHRISTIAN LIVING.. di mo lang mahahalata kung nakilala mo ko ng high school.. hahahaha.. oi oi oi.. pero I'm still tight with my faith!..medyo naging non-practicing Catholic lang ako bigla..
ginapang ko ang aking Silver Medal nung High School... nakiki-usap ako sa mga teacher na bigyan ako ng mga special projects para dun sa mga summative tests na namiss ko dahil sa mga contests na sinasalihan ko..i think that's fair.. I mean.. I wouldn't have had to do that if my 3rd year math wasn't so dismal..
kahit hindi nakikita sa aking itsura.. I have a hint of conservatism left... I am super liberal but not completely.. 70-30 pa... so I think I will not take SocSci3...
Looks no longer matter as much as it did to me before.. now.. the driving point is one's appeal...+personality...
nais kong humingi ng paumanhin sa lahat ng taong nasaktan ko o naka-away ko.. now this isn't an admission of guilt.. it's that I'm asking for forgiveness because I know I've affected you negatively in some ways.. I hope you can read this.. I'm so tired of this anymosity that I now find so trivial and insignificant..
I first learned about sex when I was in the 2nd grade... and I first LEARNED about it in the 5th grade.. hahahahahahahaha..

at yan ang nadudulot ng isang walang pagpaplanong pagsusulat.. hahahaha.. go go!..

ONE HOTTIE DOWN...

2006-08-21T21:48:00.000-05:00

Goodbye Captain Becks!... after leading England through to the Quarter Finals of the 2006 World Cup... it seems that David Beckham will no longer be part of the English Squad in its internationals after not being asked to join the new England Squad formed after Sven-Goran Erickson left the team... aaww... poor Becks...

does this mean that the resident hottie of the england squad won't cap anymore for the country?... I hope not! that would entail that isa sa mga bantayog ng DELICIOUSNESS ay di nanatin makikita come International Games... e isa pa naman siya sa mga inaadore ng countless women..and men..hahaha..kahit na he's 32..wala paring humpay ang kanyang pag-ooze ng sex appeal..Sue!..alam kong katropa kita dito!..hahaha...amf..ang sexy talaga.. hehehehehe.. :P

I JUST GOT BACK FROM PARIS!

2006-08-18T21:23:00.000-05:00

I'm currently touring the world using Goolge Earth.. I've been to Paris.. Rome.. London.. Moscow.. New York and of course.. Manila..

ang masasabi ko lang sa pictures na nakuha ko.. well.. ang ganda ng Europe!.. I am so going there when I get the opportunity!.. And as for New York.. makakapunta naman ako dun this year e... their skyscrapers are just that...they scrape the skies.. hahahaha.. (corny-mode is on)...

which leaves us with Manila.. again.. ako'y isang proud pinoy!.. ask me why... I can't give you a concrete answer.. I just am... but when I saw Manila... goshness... parang mga pinagtagpi tagping cars na nakahalandusay sa parking lot that spans an entire city...Mas maganda pa nga ata ang Bagdhad e!! even if it ravaged by war ay hindi siya mukang parking lot..

(bagdhad)

(manila)

(hmmm.. baka naman dahil lang yan sa ang dilim ng manila at ang liwanag sa bagdhad.. ah ewan..)

Here are the stuff that I searched for...

~My future kingdom!.. Hola, gente de Madrid! Soy reyno futuro!

~University of the Philippines-diliman...ang cute ng UPd!!.. parang village!.. hahaha

~UPm at MaSci...sadly.. maulap sa kamynilaan...UPm and MaSci are being swallowed alive by a looming cloud of uncertainty!...(shet!..is this a form of kaartehan of myn?!..you bet!)

nakakadepress lang kasi yung bahay namin natakluban ng ulap.. sayang.. huhuhuhu :(

BEFORE I FACE THE FIRING SQUAD

2006-08-17T22:13:00.000-05:00

Because my brain has been able to partially recover from yesterday's blitz... I'm going to do something productive today and enumerate the High School Subjects that I hate...

advanced Chemistry- ugh.. please.. I have to ask Ace the way to solve the problems everytime that there is an activity.. and then I just grope my way in the darkness everytime there is a test... and take note.. even if you do good... it still won't matter coz the grades you will receive are mediocre.. I got a good job done during the fourth quarter and all I got was an 89.
College Algebra- do I have to explain this to you?.. well... the professor.. (shit college mode!).. teaches very well.. but the tests she gives are so intimidating that my mind shuts off!... I don't know why.. she seems to teach the easy stuff then go all-out during tests.. ang galing...
advanced Biology- I don't know why I didn't like this subject.. i mean I loved general biology.. and I did get satisfactory grades in this class... but.. the learning experience wasn't completely there....
English 3- the lessons were great.. the topics were interesting.. but.. certain extra-academic circumstances paved the way for the hatred of Linnaeans towards this subject..
Trigonometry- the only subject where even if I study.. I still won't get ONE SURE answer in any test.. and the only subject where I guessed ALL the answers to a periodic test..
Finite Mathematics- the probability of me liking this subject is 1/362... the hell with it.. I had to submit extra credit reports just to make sure I could pass this subject..
Physics 2&3- good lord what did I learn in Physics 2? In Physics 3 I was able to learn something but the prof(again..college mode!) was somewhat of a pain!..but ok... but still..... I failed most of the time...
Asian History- the only social studies class that I didn't like... The names were too complicated to remember!.. the places were too complicated to remember.. the races were too eccentric to remember..hehehehehe..

thus ends this session..amf.. nothing better to do!.. Lord help me when I face them again.. give me the strength that is required of me!..

F*CK

2006-08-17T06:38:00.000-05:00

amf amf amf amf.. just got back from my "teaching gig" in UST and I am so fuckin' tired and more frustrated than I have ever been in recent history... Yun lang ang kaya kong masabi ngayon.. ang utak ko'y tuyung-tuyo.. parang sponge na binilad sa araw ng 5 cycles of the sun..(para hindi repeated yung "araw"..hahahaha..huwat?..is that humor?)..hahahahaha..

QUE BARBARIDAD!

2006-08-14T22:48:00.000-05:00

6327: the magic number... this is the number of days that I have been alive.. or this may just be a product of my 2/50 math skills... gawd.. that is the most amazing test score in the world.. of course.. it goes better with:

"Raymond.. you're the second lowest scorer in all the classes I teach"...

thank you ma'am mojica for that!... again.. I'd like to thank my ABSCBN family.. ASAP family.... my fans..hahahaha..

I think this is my third math-hater post... hahaha.. Of course.. when you've spent your entire high school life.. save your second and fourth years (mabuhay kayo Sir Mercado and Ma'am Gumboc!).. fearing the grade you might get from your math subjects... you're bound to get a bit iffy on the matter...

MAY I JUST INTERJECT AND INTERRUPT MYSELF?!...

ngayon habang nagtatayp ako may bwisit na bata na iyak ng iyak kasi may nakikialam sa kanyang paglalaro.. amf mo shut the f*ck up!..ilang araw kanang ngawa ng ngawa nakaka-urat na!!.. honestly.. I'm just keeping myself from kicking him straight in the mouth.. you know.. a good brush-up on my soccer and evil techniques... AND.. why is it that people refuse to bathe when it is SO APPARENT that the dirt is already forming a thriving ecosystem on their skin?... my god..

**
ok.. back to me.. hahahahahaha..

I've been around for like...6320+ days.. and.. after all those days.. all the money that I have in my name... are you ready?..... this is gonna be a big one!..... ONE HUNDRED PESOS! ang saya saya!... thank you Lord for giving me such a thrifty nature that all I can save is a hundred pesos after 17 years of existence!!... I think I need a restraining order on my spending coz it's getting a bit out of hand....

don't you think it's funny that you acknowledge the facts yet fail to do anyhting about it?... do no evil- i guess....

here's the list of imperatives that i need to pay for:

Candice's concert tickets.. I "have" to buy the 250php ones.. I told her I should be sitting on a throne..
UAAP UP vs. AdMU game tickets.. that's 100-150.. good Lord.. all for the sake of Scholastic Patriotism and of course.. Chris Tiu.. hahahahahaha.. amf.. stop na!..

at yan ay mga for this week only... I'm pretty sure that I'll have other things to buy the next coming days... God Save my SOUL!

THOSE WERE THE DAYS...

2006-08-14T00:01:00.000-05:00

Let's play a game....

SPOT THE DIFFERENCE!

(si Kevin..ako..si Donald--na mukang suminghot nanaman ng pentel pen..hahaha)

my best friends sa 4th year section ko..(excluding Marites.. Krystel--I don't know kung best friends ang tawag mo samin kasi sa lahat ng araw na ginawa ng Diyos e nag-aaway kami.. at si Leader Ryan..)...this was taken during the first day of vacation..at kami lahat ay naka-green... para naman madama namin presence ni Leader Ryan.. hahaha..

CAN YOU FEEL THE RHYTHM OF THE NIGHT?

2006-08-12T04:27:00.000-05:00

The only instrument that I've learned to play without doubt of my "greatness" is....... are you ready?............ the TAMBOURINE!! bwahahahahahahahahahahahaha... good luck to my musical career!!... It hasn't been an easy road.. the path was laiden with obstacles and tremendous difficulties before I reached where I am right now...

so for that I'd like to thank my ABSCBN family.. StarMagic family.. Bituing Walang Ningning family..Mam Charo!.. Mr.M!!.. thank you for believing in me!..bwahahahahaha..

walang aangal! ..bwahahahahaha!!

so as I said.. I learned how to play the tambourine when I was in the 5th grade... there were auditions for the elementary tambourine group for the Eucharistic Celebrations(holy mass for those who don't know).. I passed round 1 and we played in the mass... then.. I got the boot... yep.. they kicked me out.. hahahahaha..

"Ego! Ego! Self-esteem and Self-Respect!! Where the f*ck are you?!"

and then.. my career took a hiatus for about...4 years.. it re-emerged..like a phoenix rising from the ashes..during my third year in high school during our annual Sabayng Pagbigkas..well.. it worked out.. we won.. and since then.. I've been the UNDISPUTED KING OF THE TAMBOURINE!..bwahahahahahahaha!.. my plan for world domination is slowly being realized!!.. hahahahahahahahahaha...

here I am... with my legions of fans.. hahahahahahahahaha..

(here we are at the auditorium of MaSci during 4th year music..)

(nang matira kaming 3 sa hotel nung gradball..kami nalang ata yung nandun..)

(nung CHILDRENS' PARTY ni ermz at jie..who are 16 and 17! takte.. lapit na ng grad nun! 1 mga 1 week!)

TO BE OR NOT TO BE...[badayeyorap bareba version]

2006-08-11T22:12:00.000-05:00

Okay.. I'm back to my English Mode...hahahaha..

Yesterday... as I was going home from visiting the University of Santo Tomas... I texted my Linnae friends and asked them if any of them were in Robinson's... one replied.. twas Ethel.. so I proceeded to meet her and Bianca (known to most as Katrina.. hahaha.. College is the time for pseudonyms.. gogo zizou.. hahaha... oh by the way.. ethel wants to be called Summer.. hahahaha)...

so when I got to where they were.. I was faced with the fact that I wasn't able to buy Bianca a birthday gift.. Thank God for PAPEMELROTTI.. (is that the right way to spell it?.. hahahaha.. I don't know.. hahahaha)... I bought her a little angel figurine.. she said it was ok so I bought it.. it cost me 69 pesos.. hahahaha.. fave number!.. bwehehehehe.. (zizou.. stop..hahahahahaha)...

After I bought Bianky her gift.. Enter: Aza.. Krystel.. and Sue.. (the boys of Linnae are so lazy when it comes to gimicks... the only ones who re socially active are: Kevin[sometimes]; JayR[unfortunately.. he's in UPdiliman.. way way far from P.Faura]; and me!)... Right off the back they say: "Jollibee!! Libre!! Jollibee!! Libre!!"... I wasn't surprised but I rolled my eyes a bit...

"Again"..I thought.. nothing new.. my savings would once again be punctured by the unending whailings of my friends..hahaha.. amf.. They were like the BORG in StarTrek... RESISTANCE IS FUTILE...PREPARE TO BE ASSIMILATED...unfortunately.. they meant that they were going to assimilate my wallet... I bled 100 pesos... amf... well.. at least we were able to eat.. they contributed 20 pesos each so that we could all buy a burger steak meal for each of us.. congrats..

and to think I invited them to eat at The Aristocrat.. I wonder how many dishes and glasses I would have had to wash if we ate there...knowing that they were going to rip my wallet.. hahaha..

but hey...hahahahaha..I just had to laugh at it... My pseudo-pseudonym is already sugarDaddy... hahahahaha... goodluck to me!!... when will i be frugal?... that is the question...

Let's Go Red Lions!

2006-08-09T21:52:00.000-05:00

amf.. bwehehehehehe.. I am weirdly siding with San Beda College in the National Collegiate Athletic Association... the weird thing is that I watched it.. hahahaha.. ang weird.. bwahaha.. tawa ako ng tawa.. that is such an evil comment.. so what if the UAAP is more popular..(in my opinion).. than the NCAA?... hahahahaha..

Anyway.. the initial cause of my watching the game was the fact that I was supposed to take a test at San Beda College... siyempre.. I wanted to be a lawyer and shit.. but in the end.. I got lazy and indifferent so I didn't take the test...

I took the DLSUCET.. ACET.. UPCAT.. fortunately... I passed those 3.. bwehehehehehe..

So when UP is not matched against AdMU... kumakampi ako sa AdMU.. Sa DLSU... well... sometimes.. hehehehe... So by Associative Property of Equality (wooooosh!.. go math!! bwahahahaha..) e kakampi ako sa San Beda.. hahahahahaha..

ewan a.. kakaiba.. bwahahaha.. GO ALEX ANGELES!!.. amf.. hahaha..ewan ba.. kakaiba ang dating niya!.. bwehehehehehe.. ok.. stop na.. hehehehehehe..

WISH LIST-A (ebidensyang ang boring na ng buhay ko at nangangailangan ako ng tulong.. TEXT ME FRIENDS!!..hahaha)

2006-08-08T22:55:00.000-05:00

Gagawa ako ng list ng aking mga fantasies na hindi censored.. hahahahahaha... kung yung mga censored ay siguro ipapaaresto na ako ng MTRCB at kung sinu-sino pang mga ahensya.. hahaha.. feeling important!

I want everyone I meet to bow down to me and kiss my feet.. hehehe
Gusto ko magkar0on ng album na sa first day of release ay sold-out kagad...
kasunod nun ay multiple sold-out concerts kung saan parang mga mental hospital patients LAHAT ng nanunuod.. hehehehe..
I want to be be Queen..este.. King of Spain.. hahahahaha..
Gusto ko yung aking tahanan ay isang palasyong gawa sa kristal.. hahahaha..
pag December e may snow-machine sa tapat ng bahay na gumagawa ng pseudo-snow na malamig talaga(hindi yung styro-snow na napaka walang kwenta!)
Gusto ko lahat ng tao sa isang party e naka-Victorian era attire... (actually.. planado na yan sa debut ng isa sa aking mga friends)
I want to have my personal army of goons and gangsters... dapat full attire sila a: bonnet.. bling... baggy clothes... bats.. at baril..hahahaha (all B!) pero ako siyempre.. ang damit ko ay sophisticated... iba sa aking possy.. (oh yeah mangarap!)
Gusto ko bumaba mula sa tarmack ng airplane at magwave ng napaka-wild sa screaming legions of fans kasama ang isang flying kiss.. hahahahaha
Gusto ko maging isang Ballroom dancing champion.. hahahaha.. yaw ko ng third place! (peace tayo Treish!..bwahahahaha)
Gusto ko may bundok na ipangalan sa akin..o kaya dagat.. hahahaha
Gusto kong pag-harian ang mundo... siyempre... after Spain.. hahahaha
gusto ko gawan ako ng rebulto-yung regal effect!; with a crown and a scepter and a cape and a throne and everything.. hahaha
Gusto ko maging decalingual...right now.. I'm STRUGGLING to be a quadrilingual... Filipino.. English.. Spanish.. French... (ang naaalala ko na lang sa aking french ay.. "Bonjour.. Je suis Raymond.. comment ca va? Oui?.. Porquoi?" hahahahaha...
Gusto ko magkaroon ng sariling siyudad.. and it's filled with FABULOUS PEOPLE AND FABULOUS THINGS AND EVERYTHING FABULOUS!..hehehehehe.. OFF-Limits ang mga nag-eeffort at nag-feefeeling..hehehehe.. EVIL...

konti palang yan... di ko kasi maungkat yung mga iba ko pang gusto e.. hehehe.. tapos yung iba... cannot be nang ipost kasi masyado ng explicit.. hahahahahaha.. good luck.. sabihin ko nalang sa text... hahahaha.. o..

SILLY PUTTY

2006-08-07T22:35:00.000-05:00

bigla kong naalala ang aking 4th year family.. ang IV-Einstein... the best yan nuh.. hehehehehe.. meron kaming project nun sa music na excerpts from a broadway musical... pinili namin e Grease... coincidentally... yun din ang pinili ng Faraday... bwahahahaha.. we almost did the same routine... well.. isa lang ang pareho naming kanta.. bwahahahaha.. (parehong routine naba yun?... zizou fix your brain and compose your thoughts!)

tapos sinabihan kami ng aming music teacher na mag-eencore daw kami sa foundation day... siyempre tuwang tuwa kami... hehehehe.. weeeh!.. (does that mean we're better?..bwahek.. op!.. i didn't say anything!..) ... tapos ayun... we chose the opening and the closing song numbers nung musical...

enter foundation day....

sinimulan ng Copernicus at Roentgen ang broadway musical encores... when it's our turn.. the f*ckin' rain starts to fall... yung music teacher pa namin sinabing putulin namin yung presentation to just the first song... edi siyempre... naasar ako... amf.. nung sinimulan na kaming iintroduce ni sister.kandees... i was so scared na mag-wowalk out and mga tao kasi umaambon na... lo and behold... walang umalis..tapos naki-usap ako sa English Dept. Head na kung pwedeng ituloy namin yun... okay daw.. bait talaga ni Sir Victorio!...

nagsimula na kaming kumanta... I didn't expect the applause to be so spectacular!... hindi naman sa nagyayabang pero nung natapos na kami... kinongratulate kami ng buong administration... (director ako nun... hindi ako sumali... habang nasa stage sila e nandun ako sa baba parang stage mother.. hehehehe)...

hula ko lang.. dahil yun sa presence ni keb at ni leader ryan.. bwahahahaha.. ang pantasya ng lower years at ng fourth year respectively... hahahahaha.. mga baby ko yan!!..

daming naging sex symbol sa batch 06... mga 3.. bwahahahahahahaha.. from first year hanggang third year parang same set of people... then when 4th year came... biglang dinala ng hangin ang bagong uri ng kinalalawayan ng mga mascian.. hahahahaha..(ang halay ng sentence!)..

Exit Sulit and Ramos... Enter Einstein boys.. bwahahahahaha.. ang yabang ko talaga.. para akong bugaw!!.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... siyempre proud ako sa mga "anak" ko..bwahek.. I guess their scholastic notariety began when they performed nung band exhibition nung foundation day... kami ni sister.kandees ang emcees nun.. (what's the difference?.. ganun nalang parati!).. ang tawag sakanila nun... "Raymond-Einstein Babies"..bwahahahahahahahahaha....

(ako yung nasa gitna..yung may bridge sa tshirt..yan ang aming "cleaning-the-rooms" day..)

tapos parang nagkaroon ng concert effect!..hahahahaha... isa nung christmas party.. isa nung gradball... at ayun.. the rest.. is history... ay!..meron pa pala silang performance nung birthday ko!..3 nga lang sila nun.. hahahahahahahahahaha... natunaw ako!..bwahek!...

Dear God... forgive me for the sins I have committed... and forgive me for the pregnancy of my mind.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

2006-08-07T00:09:00.000-05:00

Not Insane (MadTV)

**tawa ako ng tawa sa video na to.. swear!!

Mariah: If you smokin' rock cocaine
And some skunky weed
And that batch of basement crank
Caused your eyes to bleed

And your husband is a pain
And your latest album- is sitting in
The "half-off" bin
Dont you stress
Tell the press (ooooh yeah)

I swear to God I'm not insane
Though the voices in my brain
Tell me I'm the queen of Spain
And I fly a horse drawn-sleigh
To a spaceship where I pray
To a monkey made of clay
And his name is José
Nonetheless, I'm not insane

If you're aroused easily
By a man who's on ecstasy
Or you lose it on TV
Like when I stripped on TRL
Take a good look at me
I kept it together
Although my weight, does fluctuate
Here on out
Go ahead and shout

Whitney & Mariah: I swear to God, I'm not insane!

Mariah: I'm engaged to a great dane!

Whitney: Fill my bootay, with champagne, yeah!

Mariah: All my shoes are made of hay!

Whitney: I work for the CIA!

Mariah: I invented Arbor day!

Whitney: I wear a hat, made of bengay

Mariah: Nonetheless, I'm not (Goes cross eyed in order to hit high note) Insaaaaane